[littleowl2006]

Hi there
I am dreaming a lot about my dad lately. These are beautiful dreams, last night I dreamt that I looked into the sky and there were millions of stars, and my dad was there. Sometimes in my dreams there is a feeling present that I have to suppress when I am awake - my dad and I don't have a relationship and are not in contact anymore. I feel like I lost him many years ago, and he is just a bitter, sarcastic, mean, abusive alcoholic to me now. But I feel like I know who he is deep inside, and this feeling has torn me up for years. I fought for him and I wanted him to be good and healthy, but instead he kept hurting himself and everyone else.
Now in my dreams the love for him is so present, and I feel like I can't put it anywhere else
Just wanted to tell someone

[Thunder Bow]

The dreams are mirroring you and your feeling towards your Father. Even though you know he is deeply troubled, and that you can not Rescue him from is troubles. Because you saw past that, and saw deep into him, you were able to still connect to him, and feel what you do. That is something to be Proud of.

Littleowl, this is to me a sign that you are feeling ready to be reconciled with your Dad. The timing is right to be dreaming about it that is how it appears. If your Dad is still alive look him up and tell him your love for him. Those words are never wasted or mail him a card that he can reread or a letter, one of patience, forgiveness and love. When we free others we free ourselves also. Blessings and tc

[littleowl2006]

I think I don't want to talk to him ever again because of how he is now. You don't tell an abuser you love him, even though it might be true. I wish it were different

[medkev13]

Characters in dreams are often projections of the dreamer's personal traits. What about your father do you relate to?

Otherwise, I think Thunderbow hit the nail on the head.

[littleowl2006]

Originally Posted by medkev13

Characters in dreams are often projections of the dreamer's personal traits. What about your father do you relate to?

Otherwise, I think Thunderbow hit the nail on the head.

I think so too

Sometimes there was a warmth about my dad, and I think that he has a good heart. He isn't unforgiving or calculating or cold like some other people, he just does the wrong things, but he is completely honest about it. As a kid I saw how deeply wounded he was and felt his sadness. That made me sad too.
It's also sad because I couldn't reach him anymore and I still miss him. He became very cruel towards everyone including me. I never understood that and it made me angry. Still does. It hurts to see how he has changed and I can't find him anymore.