Nightmares About Counselor

so I already have horrid nightmares daily but.. ever since I left the junior high where I talked to a counselor almost every day for a year and a half I've been seeing her in my dreams. It's usually me trying to reach out to her for help and her turning me away. Which then leads to me having a panic attack. The dream I had last night was based in my middle school I saw her and was like "oh my god I miss you so much, the counselor at the high school isn't like you" i mean I know what she would've said "every counselor is different give her a shot" but in my dream she turned away from me and started talking to another boy. I ran outside in a panic and never saw her again but then I was bullied by a little boy caught crying and ignored by my religious teacher and was held at gunpoint after being kidnapped and none of my friends or family would save me. I got away but that's because my dreams won't let me die they are long and tortuous..

That sounds terrible.

These dreams are replaying feelings from your growing up, You mind is replaying times when you felt your parents were ignoring you. Also anxiety around your own power (lions). This can also mean your healing, because now you mind is willing to deal with your feelings around your growing up.

I don't feel like I'm healing i feel tired and worn out and rejected.. I'm having flashbacks and can't tell what's right from wrong

Hi,
I too used to have recurring nightmares. Today, many years later...they are gone. How did I do this? I learned to face myself. I have found in my own dreams and that of others that "nightmares" are very powerful dreams to learn from, if one is listening. I can assist you.

What I've learnt from my own dreams is that there is nothing in a dream by chance. Therefore, if you answer the following questions, to the best of your recall ability, I will happily give you an interpretation of your dream as if it was mine.

First tell me the number of scenes in your dream. THEN FOR EACH SCENE I want you to tell me the following:

Location:
I want you to look in your mind, as the observer, in the following directions and tell me what you see:
1. To your left.
2. To your right.
3. In front of you.
4. Behind you.
5. Above you.
6. Below you.

It’s all right if you can’t recall much. Simply tell me what you see and make sure I know what direction it is from you the dreamer. In my interpretation, you’ll see how this is a symbol itself.

When you are describing what you see, tell me in as much detail as you can recall about it. So things I am very interested in is what are walls, doors, windows, stairs, tables, etc. made of, age/style, colour, etc. The same goes for anything outside. You’ll see in my interpretations how all of this tells us lots about ourselves.

Lighting:
1. Tell me what the lighting was like, i.e. bright, dull, black, cloudy etc.
2. Then tell me where the light was coming from.
3. Can you tell the time of day or season?
Lighting is important in a dream because it’s a symbol of vibrational state. I’ll explain this during my interpretation for you.

Objects:
If there are any objects in a dream scene, then tell me about them as follows:
1. Shape, size, colour and what they were made of.
2. Where the object is in the dream relative to you, i.e. left, right, etc.

I’ve found objects in dreams are usually symbols of things we first need to concentrate on spiritually. I’ll explain this in the interpretation if you had any objects in any of the scenes.

People:
For each person in a dream scene I want you to do the following:
1. Describe them to me in as much detail as you can recall. This includes age, gender, clothes, colour of the clothes, what the clothes were made of.
2. Tell me where they were in the dream scene relative to you, i.e. left, right, below, etc.
3. Tell me if they were lying down, sitting, standing, walking, etc.
4. Tell me what they did with you. Don’t skip the details. Simply tell me exactly what happened.
5. If there are any conversations or thoughts between you and the person or others, then tell me EXACTLY WHAT WAS SAID. This is important.
6. If there were others you couldn’t see but felt, then let me know where you felt they were in a scene relative to you the dreamer, i.e. left, right, etc.
7. For people who you know in real life, tell me anything that's different about them in the dream versus the real life version.

Animals. Etc.:
If there were any animals, insects, birds, reptiles, fish or whatever in any of the scenes, then tell me. Describe them in as great as detail as you can recall. Also let me know where they were in the dream scene relative to you, i.e. left, right, etc. Then let me know of any thoughts that passed between you and them.

Thoughts/Feelings:
This is a very important part of every dream scene. Take your time, go back and tell me the following for each scene:
1. What was your first thought/feeling as the dream scene began.
2. Tell me of any thoughts/feeling changes as the dream scene progressed and let me know where in the scene this occurred.
3. Tell me your last thought/feeling as the dream ended.

I realize this is a lot of work. HOWEVER, I think you might be surprised by how much you can learn about yourself from a single scene.

With kind regards,
Guy

If your in therapy, what you are experiencing will happen, as you mind starts to feel what happened in childhood. Healing does involve depression and anxiety. This is normal.

My dream had three major scenes.
Scene 1: my Middle School Gym and Lunch Area, to my left were lunch tables and a bunch of people, to my right was the hallway, in front of me was Mrs. P, behind me was the rest of the lunch room the offices, above me was the ceilings below me was the tiled floor a dull white.
Scene 2: I was knelt on a stage in front of a woman with a shot gun blinded but I could see, to my left and right I could see only the walls, in front of me was multiple of my loved ones sitting in wooden chairs behind me was the women with the gun, above me was the lighted ceiling below me was the stage
Scene 3: in the playground of my elementary school. To my left is the brick building, right is the playground woodchips and little kids, in from of me is a female version of my priest and my CCD teacher behind me is the log cabin and the fench from my junior high grass field and a road, above me is a grayish sky, below me is the blacktop

Lighting:
1: bright blinding from the artificial lights afternoon
2: dim and warm unknown light source night
3: bright blinding the sun afternoon

Objects:
1: focused on the counselors large dark sunglasses and the small grey tiles
2: the shot gun was burning to the touch everyone watching was sitting in wooden chairs
3: my CCD teacher was rubbing her cross the playground from my childhood third school was there

People:
1: Mrs. P: like she normally is female tall wearing high heels but she was frowning and I couldn't see her eyes she was to my right standing.. she was ignoring me told me "yeah like always" I was venting to her about my friends I think.. (its hard for me to focus on words when my emotions are so strong)
2: a random stranger held me at gun point she whispered in my ear "no one will save you even them.." all my family and friends stared in horror and said nothing I grabbed onto the gun it burned my hands and i bolted to the next scene
3: I was breathing heavily and crying as my CCD teacher walked up and asked "is this where you go to school" she was originally talking to the nun about her childhood catholic school and an orphanage but wouldn't look at me I could feel her disappointment radiating off her

Feeling/thoughts:
1: I missed her so much I felt relieved jittery, when she wouldn't look at or talk to me my heart started pounding and I started crying
2: I was obviously panicked and depressed as she tried to kill me and no one would help
3: first I felt random joy but it dropped away into panick desire for counsel and loneliness

I left the dream with the feeling of fear, loneliness, depression, anger, loss..

I'm not in therapy anymore at least not as often..

Hi Ruby,

First, let me state some things about myself, before I get to the interpretation of your dream as if it was mine.

I am not a psychologist or a psychiatrist. I am also not religious but am very spiritual. So, take what comes below with this in mind.

My take on dreams is quite different than many people. Why? I had a near death experience nearly 13 years ago and this took me into meditation, lucid dreams, and dream journaling. My dreams didn’t literally interpret. There were often people in my dreams that I didn’t know. Further, some I did know were doing strange things. One day, I had an idea to use my higher self I was now able to access via meditation, and this was the point when my dream gates swung wide open.

If you want to check my views out, go to Learning From My Dreams | Dream Interpretation ? Learning where I created a free website to let people know what I’ve learnt about my dreams. On the splash page, towards the bottom are 10 things I’ve learned from my dreams.

You might also want to read a story I put together to explain the multiverse we live in here Multiverse ? A Story ? Learning From My Dreams | Dream Interpretation

If after reading this you still want my interpretation then read on. If not, then don’t read any further.

Below is my interpretation of your dream as if it was mine. Dreams are for each of us to interpret on our own. Therefore, if anything I say below doesn’t resonate with you, then simply discard it. So with that said, off I go…

Scene 1: my Middle School Gym and Lunch Area

When I do my own interpretations or that of others, I always start with the location. I could have located it anywhere, at any time in any reality and…I’ve located it in a school gym with the lunch area. I’ve learnt that locations help to “spiritually frame in” a dream.

I will take the first of several sidebars here to help you understand the framework I use when interpreting a dream. This one will cover what I’ve learned about beliefs, belief compartments, people and the age of people. Then I’ll return to myself in the gym/lunch area.

In my dreams, things that are made by people are symbols of masculine and things of nature are symbols of feminine. I’ve learnt that before we incarnate, we carefully select the times we will live in, our families, life circumstances, challenges and potential exit points. We then carefully select our personality.

I’ve learnt we do this by selecting approximately 200 different “belief filters”. These are energy filters that have two polarities, a feminine one and a masculine one. We select the degree of polarity we are going to hold the belief, i.e. the degree of feminine or masculine. This then determines the belief vibratory level.

Each belief then works with the other beliefs, each with their own vibratory rate. They literally “filter our reality” by blocking out the greater reality vibrations we actually come from. They create the aura around us and create our thoughts/feelings for each moment.

We constantly tell ourselves about this in our dreams. We use symbolism to show ourselves about the beliefs and their limiting effects on us spiritually. We also show ourselves the “dis-ease’ created by some of our beliefs using colours in our dreams.

In my dreams buildings are symbols of what I call ‘belief compartments’. I’ve learnt that each wall is a symbol of a belief. Furniture within them are symbols of yet more beliefs that work with the overall beliefs to produce what I call are ‘belief effects’.

To symbolize to ourselves the many different types of beliefs we use in all our many lives, we often create our dreams in towns, cities or houses.

I’ve often found that in many of my dreams, people appear in the rooms or buildings. When I first began to record my dreams, many years ago, I frequently found myself in large warehouses full of boxes I had to climb over or in rooms in houses full of furniture. Imagine my surprise when I eventually learnt they boxes and furniture were symbols of masculine based beliefs I had to address first before I got to the walls!

As I spiritually listened to myself, over time, the rooms began to empty. Then I was walking through empty rooms. The next step was to see glass walls, windows and open doors, all symbols of how I was beginning to work my way out of the old belief walls. Then the walls began to disappear. In the end, I was usually flying over the old beliefs.

In many of my dreams when I began to keep a record of my dreams,, I would find myself in multi-storied houses. I then realized these are symbols of numerous belief compartments I use in one or more of my lives.

Then I found myself in towns and cities. I then realized that each one is a symbol of various belief compartments I have used in another life.

I will take another sidebar here and describe what I’ve learnt about people in my dreams…

When I first began recording my dreams, I would often find people in my dreams that I didn’t know or ones that I did know but they were doing strange things. When I tried to literally interpret my dreams, it usually didn’t work.

I had a near death experience 12 years ago that changed me. One of the changes was a determination to learn to meditate. I had stopped and started meditation all my life and had in effect gone nowhere in a hurry. So this time I was determined to stick with it.

I slowly learnt how to touch my “higher self”. One day, the thought came to me to use my higher self to assist me in interpreting my dreams. Then the dream gates swung wide open.

I’ve since learnt that people in my dreams may be who they are, symbols of my masculine and feminine, other lives, teachers, guides, oversoul, aspects of myself, people who I frequently incarnate with, etc.

When I first began to record my dreams I frequently began to see an old couple. They might change their appearance but there was almost always an old man and woman in the dream. Then a young girl and by appeared.

They too sometimes changed but they were now in the same dream as the old couple. However, they were “bit players” in my dreams as the old couple was the ones I was interacting with.

At first, I had no idea who these people were. Then, as I learnt to mediate and apply my higher self to my dream interpretations, my dreams gates swung open.

First, I learnt that the old man and women were symbols of my masculine and feminine. Next, I learnt that the young girl and boy were symbols of the feminine and masculine I could become. So I then used the terms “old masculine and feminine” and “young masculine and feminine” to describe these dream symbols to myself.

As I began to address my underlying beliefs, the old couple disappeared from my dreams and the young ones spiritually grew up.

I’ve learnt that people’s age in dreams is important.

When infants are in my dreams as other lives, this is usually a symbol we are just beginning our journey through the beliefs the dream is about.

When teenagers show up I realize I am making steady progress through my dreams.

When mature adults show up, it’s a sign that I am now spiritually maturing in dealing with the beliefs.

When old people show up in my dreams, I let out a sound of joy! It’s a sign that I am now ready to release the old beliefs.

I then learnt that things made out of natural materials are symbols of feminine beliefs that are now no longer working for me. In effect, spiritually speaking, they are now “dead” for me, i.e. dead trees – wood, etc. So, whenever I am in rooms made of wood or standing on wood, etc. I refer to this in my mind as “dead feminine”.

About a year and a half ago, I felt compelled to put together a free website documenting what I have learnt. At first, I didn’t want to because I felt what I had learnt was akin in my mind to a teaspoon of water compared to all the oceans’ water, i.e. not much. However the feeling persisted.

Today if you go to ‘learningfrommydreams’ dot com you’ll see what I created. If you go there, I suggest you look at 3 things. One is the meditation page where I list all sorts of different ways to meditate. Find one that works for you.

Then I recommend you read the dream discussion paper I posted on the website. It describes the symbolism I’ve learnt including people.

Finally, I recommend you look at the resources page where you’ll find an extensive list of things to look at.

So with this said, back to my dream…

The first thing I note is that I am inside a large masculine based belief compartment, i.e. the gym/lunch area. Each wall, ceiling and floor are symbols of different masculine based beliefs.

Next I note that I have located my dream scene in a middle school. Schools are symbols in my dreams of places where I learn. So, I am sending myself a message here that there is something for me to learn about myself.

Further, I’ve found in my dreams that the age of people who appear in my dreams is another way of sending myself messages about my spiritual progress in addressing the beliefs the dream scene is about. Bear in mind that we are the producers and stars of our own dreams. We control everything that goes on in the dream, including which people there are and their appearances.

So, the fact that I chose a middle school and not a high school or university is important to note. It’s a way of telling myself that I am still spiritually young, ONLY REGARDING THE BELIEFS THIS DREAM SCENE IS ABOUT.

“To my left were lunch tables and a bunch of people, to my right was the hallway, in front of me was Mrs. P, behind me was the rest of the lunch room the offices, above me was the ceilings below me was the tiled floor a dull white.”

To my feminine side, i.e. left, is a bunch of tables. Ruby, when objects show up in my dreams, these too are symbols of yet more masculine based beliefs for me to address. They’re usually the first symbols of beliefs I should address first. As note earlier, as I learn to listen to myself and address the underlying beliefs, the rooms eventually clear out. This is then followed by windows and doors appearing and then walls disappearing. When I have finally dealt with the belief compartment, i.e. rooms, I am usually flying above where they used to be.

So there I am with tables to my right. They are places where people sit and eat. I will take another brief side bar here and tell you what I’ve learnt about sitting, standing and walking in my dreams and then return to the folks sitting at the tables.

When I am lying down in dream, it’s a symbol that I don’t have any spiritual ability yet to even see the effects of some of my beliefs.

When I am sitting, it’s a symbol that I need spiritual support to see the effects of some of my beliefs.

When I am standing, it’s a symbol that I now can stand on my own two spiritual feet to see the effects.

When I am walking, it’s a symbol that I am now steadily moving through the beliefs.

When I am running, it’s a symbol I am moving relatively quickly through the beliefs.

Note that I have found that spiritual time and our time are too different things. Usually my dream time is far faster than my physical time. So when I am running etc. I realize that it still will take “some time”.

Back to the dream…

So, to my feminine side are symbols of beliefs that I and others required spiritual support to see some of the effects of the beliefs we spiritually consume.

So who are the people to my feminine side? They are some of my other lives. At the end of this interpretation is a suggestion to read some books by Jane Roberts that could help provide a frame of reference about over souls and other lives.

When my other lives show up in a dream scene, I note that they are there for several reasons. One is to show me that they too share the same underlying beliefs I do. Second is to show me that they are spiritually working with me on the same underlying beliefs. Third, the way they dress is a way to send me information about the beliefs I am “spiritually wearing”. I will take yet another brief side bar here and tell you what I’ve learnt about clothes in my dreams…

In my old dreams, I frequently was in places nude and would panic that others would see me (I’m sure readers of this interpretation will have had similar dreams). I was always wanting to get dressed or hide away.

Imagine my surprise when I learnt that clothes are symbols of beliefs we “spiritually wear”. I then have learnt that being nude in a dream is a sign of spiritual progress regarding the beliefs the dream is about.

We are beings where we are both feminine and masculine. We live many, many lives as either sex, sometimes hermaphrodite, gay, whatever. Yet in the world we live in today, being nude is considered somewhat of a “sin”.

So, today, I always rejoice when I am partially nude or wRuby nude in a dream. This also applies to footwear.

I’ve learnt as I make spiritual progress regarding a set of beliefs, frequently I am barefoot. Shoes are a way of symbolizing beliefs we use to separate ourselves from our feminine, i.e. ground we walk upon.

So, in summary some of my other lives are to my feminine side, spiritually requiring support, i.e. sitting. From this I take some heart for I now know I am not alone in my spiritual dream work.

“…to my right was the hallway…” Right is a symbol in my dreams of my masculine side. There is a hallway. Hallways in my dreams are what I call “belief corridors”. It’s a way of letting myself know that at some point I will need to walk down them, i.e. spiritually work my way through the beliefs they are a symbol of. Hallways are usually different than rooms in that they are much narrower, i.e. a way to let myself know that these beliefs the halls are a symbol of are now beginning to “spiritually hem me in.”

“…behind me was the rest of the lunch room the offices.” When things are behind me in my dreams, it’s a way of telling myself at some point I will have to turn around, spiritually go back and visit the beliefs they are a symbol of. So there are some more masculine based belief compartments behind me.

“…above me was the ceilings below me was the tiled floor a dull white.” Tiles are another symbol of masculine based beliefs. That’s what’s supporting me in this dream. They’re white. Why is this important?

I have learnt that colours in my dreams are very important. They are symbols of how the beliefs affect different points on my etheric and physical body. The old Hindi’s of thousand of years ago saw three energies swirling into our bodies at several points they called “chakras”. Then they mapped 70,000 different smaller points they called “Nadis”. This then grew to 100,000 points. It was and is an amazing piece of work.

Since I can only see the first 6 inches or so of an aura around a person and I’m not yet able to see chakras, I use this reference for colours and general body location points “The Chakras” by David Leadbeater. You can find free copies of it online.

I find that this is the best reference I can find to date about colours but the colours in my dreams usually go beyond what I find in David’s reference.

So back to my dream…

White is a symbol of unity, i.e. of all the colours. I am letting myself know a progress report on the belief I am currently spiritually standing on. I have made progress on it such that it’s now no longer affecting my etheric and physical body. I take some heart from this.

Now I turn my attention to the lighting in this scene…

I will take a side bar here and describe what I’ve learnt about lighting in my dreams…

Lighting in my dreams is very important. It is a way of symbolizing how much en-lightenment I have with respect to the beliefs the dream is about.

Dark in my dreams is a symbol of where I haven’t yet spiritually explored my beliefs. Sunlight is a symbol that my over soul is assisting me.

When I am in rooms with no windows or doors, it’s a symbol that I am “en-lightening” myself on my own.

If there are windows and the sun is shining through, it’s a symbol that some of my belief walls are beginning to be removed and my over soul is now beginning to assist me.

Morning is a symbol I am beginning to make progress on my beliefs. Noon is a symbol I am now able to shed full spiritual enlightenment on beliefs the scene is a symbol of. Evening is a time when I am in a place of spiritual darkness with respect to the beliefs.

If it’s winter, it’s a sign that I need to reflect on my beliefs since they are frozen. If it’s spring, it’s a time that I am beginning to make spiritual progress on the beliefs. If it’s summertime, it’s a symbol that my work is now bearing spiritual fruit. If it’s fall, it indicates I am heading towards a period where I can reap the benefits by releasing old beliefs.
The lighting was “…bright blinding from the artificial lights afternoon”. I could have used any type of lighting in this dream and I’ve selected this. Why? I am showing myself that I am now spiritually ready to deal with this belief compartment. I am using my own “en-lightenment” to spiritually illuminate myself, i.e. it’s blinding bright.

I’m also showing me that the light comes from masculine based beliefs I hold, i.e. artificial lights. There is no sun in this dream. Sun is a symbol of my higher self assisting me. It can’t get through to me because of the belief walls this dream is a symbol of.

Finally I note it’s afternoon. It’s time to release the old beliefs or, I will then enter a time of spiritual darkness regarding the beliefs this scene is about.

And now I come to the heart of this scene…the people and their actions with me.

“…in front of me was Mrs. P…”. What’s in front of me is a way to address what I need to first focus on in this dream.

“Mrs. P: like she normally is female tall wearing high heels but she was frowning and I couldn't see her eyes she was to my right standing.. she was ignoring me told me "yeah like always" I was venting to her about my friends I think.. (its hard for me to focus on words when my emotions are so strong)”” I saw her and was like "oh my god I miss you so much, the counselor at the high school isn't like you".

I will take this in chunks…

First of all I am using a beloved counselor in real life. Is this her or, is she a symbol or is she a teacher or what? She’s a teacher.

Ruby, all of us have spiritual guides and teachers. I’ve had spiritual teachers that have come and gone as I’ve learnt things. My teachers can take on any person, gender, etc. in my dreams. So, they have selected a person who I really respect to act as them. They are now going to be “teaching me” something about myself.

I note that my teacher is wearing high heels. So this dream scene has something to do with me judging myself by how others judge me, i.e. fashion. This belief effect comes from masculine based beliefs, i.e. shoes.

Next, my “teacher” is somewhat to my masculine side, i.e. to my right.

Third, she is standing, not walking or sitting. She’s letting me know that I am now able to stand on my own two spiritual feet to see the effects of my beliefs. When I am ready to address them, she and I will be walking through the belief compartment.

And now we come to the action of the dream…

“I saw her and was like "oh my god I miss you so much, the counselor at the high school isn't like you.” “I was venting to her about my friends I think.”

So the action begins with me wanting to vent about my friends…a effect of my judging myself by how others judge me. If I was using my feminine abilities they would be more about collaboration, acceptance and love. Instead, I am standing in a masculine based belief compartment wanting to tell myself about my friends.

And what does my teacher do? “…she was ignoring me told me "yeah like always"”

It’s my dream and it’s up to me to learn about myself. So my teacher is letting me know it’s time to release these old beliefs I am holding that evaluates myself based on what others think of e. So, she is ignoring me and telling me “yeah like always".

In the dream, I completely miss the point. Instead, I am hurt because of the way my teacher is treating me, i.e. I am judging myself by how others judge me!

So what do I do?

“I ran outside in a panic and never saw her again.” This is what I call leaving a spiritual yellow sticky note to myself. So what do I mean by this?

In my dreams, I sometimes turn away from situations about beliefs. This is like waving a flag in front of myself saying “Hey me! This is a belief I don’t want to face right now. I will return when I am ready to face it.” i.e. like leaving a yellow sticky note to oneself.

Finally, I consider my thoughts and feelings in the dream. “I missed her so much I felt relieved jittery, when she wouldn't look at or talk to me my heart started pounding and I started crying.”

I’ve learnt the first thought/feeling is usually the theme of the dream. “I missed her so much I felt relieved jittery…” This dream is about me not yet wanting to let go, i.e. the feeling of missing someone. Then I felt relieved, i.e. my belief security blanket is there. Then I felt jittery, i.e. I’m not sure what’s going to happen.

Ruby, what I’ve learnt from my dreams is that what we think is instantly manifested. So my feeling of jitteriness will soon be created.

“…when she wouldn't look at or talk to me my heart started pounding and I started crying.” I am feeling rejected. My old beliefs are no longer working for me.

Scene 2 – The Stage

“I was knelt on a stage in front of a woman with a shot gun blinded but I could see, to my left and right I could see only the walls, in front of me was multiple of my loved ones sitting in wooden chairs behind me was the women with the gun, above me was the lighted ceiling below me was the stage.”

This is VERY INTERESTING! I am selecting the dream scene location as a stage where performances are given that are about real life but aren’t real and are “staged”. Recall - it’s my dream and it’s me who’s producing the dream scene. So…I AM WANTING ME TO NOT ONLY RECALL THIS DREAM BUT TO REALIZE THE EFFECTS OF THE BELIEFS ARE SELF-INDUCED AND NOT REAL UNLESS I BELIEVE THEM.

So there I am, kneeling down, i.e. I am not yet able to rise up and stand on my won two spiritual feet to see the effects of my own beliefs.

I am blinded, i.e. letting me know that these old beliefs have been spiritually blinding me. BUT I CAN SPIRITUALLY SEE, i.e. it’s time to spiritually wake up.

So, what do I see? “…to my left and right I could see only the walls, in front of me was multiple of my loved ones sitting in wooden chairs behind me was the women with the gun, above me was the lighted ceiling below me was the stage.”

So to my feminine and masculine sides, I see masculine based beliefs, i.e. walls . Above me is the lighted ceiling.

I note the lighting was “…dim and warm unknown light source night.” So I am sending myself a message that I need to spiritually “en-lighten” myself, i.e. that’s why it’s dim. Further, these beliefs the scene is about are keeping me in spiritual darkness, i.e. night. There is some what I call “spiritual heavy lifting” ahead of me to get to daylight and the warmth of my higher self to assist me.

In front of me are my loved ones. Are they themselves or, are they symbols? They’re themselves. They too share the same underlying beliefs I do that this scene is about. All of them require spiritual support to see the effects of the beliefs, i.e. they are sitting. Further, the underlying belief supporting them is what I call “dead feminine beliefs, i.e. wood chairs made from my feminine.

Above me is the woman with the gun. Who is she? She’s another life. This scene is about masculine based beliefs I have come to call “command/control”.

I’ve learnt from my own dreams that these are masculine based beliefs that are afraid of my feminine. As a result, I build around myself spiritual, mental and physical walls to protect myself from my feminine.

I’ve also learnt from my dreams that I usually symbolize this in my dreams with a “Controller” and a “Controlee”. I’ve lived thousands of lives and have played both parts many, many times.

In this dream, one of my other lives is playing the part of the controller. She’s holding a masculine based belief symbol, i.e. a gun. It’s used to kill things, i.e. my feminine. So she’s going to spiritually control me and kill myself spiritually.

I am the controlee. Kneeing down waiting for my moment of doom. My family watches doing nothing! Of course they’re doing nothing! It’s my dream, about myself and it’s up to me to figure it out on my own!

“A random stranger held me at gun point she whispered in my ear "no one will save you even them.." “All my family and friends stared in horror and said nothing I grabbed onto the gun it burned my hands and I bolted to the next scene.” “The shot gun was burning to the touch”

My other life is teaching me a lesson about myself. She’s letting me know that this dream scene is about my own beliefs and it’s up to me to deal with it. HOWEVER, I literally interpret this. I’m shocked to see my family sitting there doing nothing. I can now see through the former beliefs that have been blinding me, i.e. the blindfold.

So what do I do? Why I spiritually stand up, grab the gun and flee, i.e. leaving myself another spiritual yellow sticky note to come back and address later when I’m ready to face myself. I note that the old masculine belief symbol is now burning to my touch, i.e. it’s time to first address this symbol of command/control and trying to control everything through anger and physical control.

And what were my thoughts/feelings? “I was obviously panicked and depressed as she tried to kill me and no one would help.” - I haven’t learnt the lesson this dream is offering. Not only do I spiritually survive, I am no longer kneeling down letting my old beliefs effectively spiritually kill me!

Scene 3: in the playground of my elementary school.

“To my left is the brick building, right is the playground woodchips and little kids, in from of me is a female version of my priest and my CCD teacher behind me is the log cabin and the bench from my junior high grass field and a road, above me is a grayish sky, below me is the blacktop.” “…bright blinding the sun afternoon.”

Very, very interesting. I am now outside. This is what I call a “teaching dream” since I am no longer within my old belief walls. My higher self is now shining down on me, i.e. the sun! However, there is a grayish sky – i.e. the clouds are symbols of some low vibrational feminine based beliefs.

I have selected an elementary school playground, i.e. I am showing myself that what I am to be taught is going to take me a long time to spiritually digest it, i.e. I am in a place where young children play.

I take some heart from the playground, i.e. it’s a place where I can play and learn.

““To my left is the brick building, right is the playground woodchips and little kids.” To my feminine side, i.e. left, is a symbol of a masculine group of belief compartments, i.e. building. I note that it’s made of red brick.

Red is a colour of my lowest two chakras. These cover my groin area and have to do with my genitals. These beliefs are affecting my surface level beliefs of masculine, feminine, gender, sex, roles and relationships. I’m not looking at it directly so this is what I would call leaving yet another spiritual yellow sticky note to myself to go back and visit it later when I am spiritually ready.

To my masculine side is processed feminine, i.e. dead feminine beliefs, i.e. wood chips. Some of my other lives are there playing. So, this is another way of letting me know I have a long ways to go in releasing the old beliefs this dream scene is about.

“…behind me is the log cabin and the bench from my junior high grass field and a road…”So behind me, i.e. a place to return and investigate later, is a symbol of on old “dead feminine set of beliefs”, i.e. a log cabin. There’s also a symbol of a masculine based beliefs I have used to spiritually support me in the past, i.e. the bench.

“In front of me is a female version of my priest and my CCD teacher” “I was breathing heavily and crying as my CCD teacher walked up and asked "is this where you go to school" she was originally talking to the nun about her childhood catholic school and an orphanage but wouldn't look at me I could feel her disappointment radiating off her.”

I will take this in chunks…

Is the priest themselves or not? Yes they are. Who is the CCD teacher? They are my spiritual teacher again!

I am “breathing heavily and crying.” Remember it’s my dream and I am producing this dream scene. So the dream begins with me spiritually drawing deep breaths and also feeling sorry for myself, i.e. an effect of my judging myself by how others judge me.

The nun also shares the same underlying beliefs I do. She is walking, i.e. spiritually working through the beliefs. I am standing, i.e. I’m now able to stand on my own two spiritual feet to see some of the effects of my beliefs.

My spiritual teacher “she was originally talking to the nun about her childhood catholic school and an orphanage.” My spiritual teacher could have been talking about ANYTHING AND INSTEAD CHOOSE THIS. This is important for me to learn from. Ruby, it’s your dream. I “Feel” this is something for you to figure out on your own.

My spiritual teacher “asked "is this where you go to school" she was originally talking to the nun about her childhood catholic school and an orphanage but wouldn't look at me I could feel her disappointment radiating off her.” So, I am being taken back to my elementary school years by my spiritual teacher. I need to go back and reflect on what I was experiencing then.

Recall that this dream scene has something to do with me judging myself by how others judge me. So, in my elementary school years, it’s likely I felt I was disappointing others AND MYSELF.

So now I turn to my thoughts…

At “first I felt random joy but it dropped away into panic desire for counsel and loneliness “. My dream begins with me feeling joy, likely from having escaped my spiritual death from my other life with the gun.

I then move to a panic where I want my spiritual teacher to counsel me. When that doesn’t happen – I feel loneliness.

And here is the heart of my dream. I am looking to others to guide me, lead me and to listen to me…and they’re not in my dream. Instead of learning to listen to myself, realizing that I am much more than my physical body and that I have other lives that are spiritually working with me, instead…. I choose to judge myself by how others judge me. As a result, when the dream ends “I left the dream with the feeling of fear, loneliness, depression, anger, loss.”

Ruby, I am not able to walk in your physical or spiritual shoes. You have selected a life full of challenges. What I can do is tell you of a personal experience I had by learning to listen to myself. This keeps me going when the skies are dark all around me…

I will tell you a bit about my own journey and then return to your recent dreams...

When my grandmother died 35 or so years ago, in a dream I "found her" downstairs in her basement "lost". So I took her upstairs towards some light. I woke up, wondering what the heck it was about and put it out of my mind.

Then about 30 years ago, my dad died. In a dream, I found him wandering around lost as well. I then took him to a spiritual hospital. It was a wonderful place full of trees, nature et al. I left him in their care. Then I went back in another dream and he was now gone. At the time, I again wondered what these dreams were and simply pushed them out of my mind.

About 13 years ago, I had a near death experience. It acted as a catalyst to begin to listen to myself.

After my near death experience, I didn't just sort of wake and say "Now I know myself". For the first few years, I realized I was carrying around a lot of baggage, i.e. anger and resentment towards people. So I very slowly sucked up my courage, approached the people and forgave them. This was really the start of my healing journey.

I had started and stopped meditation many times for the first 50 years of my life, in effect going nowhere in a hurry. I had read that when one can touch one's higher self, one definitely "knows" it BUT I had never experienced it. I was now determined to do it. So I joined some meditation and spiritual circles and kept at it.

At first, nothing happened. And then one day, I did connect. It was a glorious "feeling" and then poof! It was gone as my conscious mind took over. I now "knew' why people meditated.

I then had 3 lucid dreams with my father who died nearly 30 years ago. When one has out of body experiences, it changes one's sense of what they think of "reality".

Then my meditations deepened. I then had a meditation that changed my life. I saw myself as 3 Russian dolls, the types that fit into each other. I saw 3 lives, which I knew where "me" but they weren't me. I came out of that meditation and then the following days went into deep meditations for 2 of them. What I learnt was that I had been killed in violent circumstances, one in the Middle East and the other in central Asia. These meditations really "shook me up". I realized they were what I though of as "past lives".

Now, these "experiences" for one who's not been through them, could easily discount as an overactive imagination, or whatever. But, for myself, I now "knew" more about who I was.

Then I had an experience that is still resonating with me today several years late. I was in a mediation circle. At the end of it, I "felt" a presence. It showed itself to me as a premature young boy. I "knew" it was for the woman sitting beside me. At the time, I only knew she was a schoolteacher and had 2 late teen kids. So I turned to her and asked if I could give her a message. She said yes.

I asked her if she had miscarried a baby boy? She said yes. Then the most wonderful thing I've ever experienced occurred...

The baby boy turned into a man and sent pure unconditional love to me. It was something words can't describe. It went to the very heart of who I am. It only lasted a fraction of a second but it has lasted with me ever since. I broke down and began to cry. The lady began to cry. I then told her, her son was telling me that he was always with her. She then replied a medium had brought him through before but she was so glad to know it once again.

He was a teacher for me. He showed me what all of us are at our soul level. I now KNOW we are beings of pure unconditional love.

It wasn't long afterwards, one day while I was trying to interpret my dreams that the idea came to me to use my higher self, which I could now access through meditation to assist me in interpreting my dreams. This was when my dream gates swung wide open.

I then, very slowly, learnt about myself. My higher self, my over soul or whatever one wants to call it, doesn't always give me "answers". Sometimes it will. Frequently, it will tell me to "work it out on my own" with a reassuring presence/feeling/thoughts that I can.

Now I simply "reach" for my over soul and there it is, always with me. I can't prove any of what I've just said to you or anyone else. I’ve found it's a journey of one. All of us have our own unique paths through life.

My experiences with my "other lives", my "probable lives" and my "future lives" et al are what they are. All of them are distinctly separate from me, yet, I also know we are "connected". The feelings that "they" have, their "experiences" are theirs yet also mine, if this makes any sense.

Ruby, if your dream was mine, it’s what I would call a spiritual wake up call to myself. I can keep running away from my inner self, in which case my dream shows me as “feeling of fear, loneliness, depression, anger, loss.”

OR, I can learn to listen to myself. My dream showed me that I can easily see through the beliefs I have been blindfolding myself with. I can spiritually rise to my feet and be out with my over soul out in the spiritual sun.

Therein lies the choice of this dream. If I choose to, I can use the yellow spiritual sticky pad route and park my dream in my spiritual darkness. OR, I CAN LEARN TO LISTEN TO MYSELF.

Speaking from personal experience, this path is not always easy since one must learn to face oneself BUT IT IS HIGHLY REWARDING.

If I wanted to learn to listen to myself here are some suggestions I could use:
• Learn to listen to my intuition – it’s my spiritual radar
• Keep a dream journal – each night I get a course on myself
• Learn to meditate – this is a way to connect with the greater me

There are many ways one can get in touch with one self…

Meditation is one way. The old hindi's of 2,500-3,000 years ago wanted to have out of body experiences. They did this by occupying the conscious mind allowing their inner soul to rise. Today, this is called yoga and the OBE portion is mostly an afterthought.

When they were out of their bodies, they saw energy swirling into the body from the sun, from the earth and from the side. They called these main points "chakras". Then they saw that the energy went into small points they called "nadis".

They then did something that amazes me to this day. They mapped 70,000 different nadi points and then it went up to 100,000.

This knowledge crossed over the Himalayas and went down into China. It became adopted as energy meridian lines. Today accupuncture uses this.

Yoga is simply one of many ways. On Meditation ? Learning From My Dreams | Dream Interpretation I list several different ways to meditate. You can go there and see if any one of these resonates with you. If so, then give it a try.

Another way is to use the hemisync technology that Robert Monroe pioneered to help people get to the theta state and have out of body experiences. You can go to the Monroe Institute to learn more https://www.monroeinstitute.org/. Books Bob wrote can be found here https://www.amazon.com/s/ref=la_B00N...qid=1477584351

Another way is to go to a hypnotist trained by the Newton Institute. This was created by a psychologist Michael Newton. About 30 or so years ago, he had a woman under hypnosis who went to a place she called her "live between lives". He then found out that many of his other patients went to a very similar place. He then write three books and began to train psychologists how to do this. The Newton Institute can be found here The Newton Institute for Life Between Lives Hypnotherapy. On this website is a link to find a local therapist.

To learn about other lives, I suggest reading a fictional trilogy “Over Soul Seven” by Jane Roberts. She was a great channeler who brought through an entity names Seth in the 1970’s. He wrote many books through her. She also wrote some of her own books.

The books I am referring to are a trilogy she wrote to explain, in a simple story form, complex ideas about us incarnating many times, at the same time. It’s an easy read and good way to get one’s mind around the concept of an over soul and many other lives.

The choice is yours to make. I hope that some of what I’ve said above deeply resonates within you.

With kind regards,
Guy