[katika]

Hi!

I quitted on the 13th of November 2009, then had one cigarette on the 15th, but stopped completely after that. Last year I went through a lot of emotional stress, I was very lonely, but I still remained smoke-free.

Recently I got better emotionally, I have few friends who helped me a lot , also go to therapy, but a few days ago I started to smoke again. It feels that I got my life back, but on the other hand I really feel bad about it.

I do not want to smoke and I feel that I am such a failure. How can I stop it again? It was so hard to quit. How can I gather strength to do it again? What can I do???

[madisgram]

hi kat, i admire that you stopped even if you fell off the horse. you can do it. you really know that since you stopped before. keep us posted.

[vs tyrant]

Well what did you do last time?

[Seaswept]

Katika,
I just quit smoking in the spring. I know what you're going threw it is extremely difficult!
I had been a yo yo smoker for 10 years, it started just occasionally, like when I was drinking or when I was with my sister and it just progressed from there.
Every time I got stressed out, I'd bum one and then wind up buying a pack.

What ya have to remember is you can never again think you can have just 1 because you will go right back to it. I try to avoid certain people and situations that trigger me.
I still crave one once in a while, the last time I had one though, it tasted nasty, so I guess it does get better.

[katika]

Originally Posted by vs tyrant

Well what did you do last time?

Hello, I used Zyban to quit, but since I am on citalopram, I can't have it. Also I used to see a tutor, but she is in another town, about 120 miles away from here, and I don't know if they do the same here, where I am now, but I will find it out.

I also did lot of thinking before and was very focused on quitting cigarette. I was very strong. Now I am a bit more relaxed that is why I thought I can have one cigarette...

Thanks.

[katika]

Originally Posted by Seaswept

Katika,
I just quit smoking in the spring. I know what you're going threw it is extremely difficult!
I had been a yo yo smoker for 10 years, it started just occasionally, like when I was drinking or when I was with my sister and it just progressed from there.
Every time I got stressed out, I'd bum one and then wind up buying a pack.

What ya have to remember is you can never again think you can have just 1 because you will go right back to it. I try to avoid certain people and situations that trigger me.
I still crave one once in a while, the last time I had one though, it tasted nasty, so I guess it does get better.

Seaswept! I think I have to learn it the hard way. I make my life difficult.

I smoked for 16 years, not a day off. Or rather, after 5 years I had 4 weeks without, than back to it again. Last year I tried to quit from March. Some success (6 weeks), then loads of struggle: on and off smoking.

Eventually I had very good support from NHS (I live in UK) and I could quit with Zyban and with visiting a tutor every week. Unfortunately I can't do it now, since I am on antidepressant, and moved from the place where I lived.

I thought I only smoked for 2 days, I can stop, but somehow I feel very week every morning. Now I smoke as I did before. I feel no difference, but hope that I will stop again. Next time I will keep it in my mind that I can not have one ever again. Now I understand it.

Thank you for your support.

[katika]

Originally Posted by madisgram

hi kat, i admire that you stopped even if you fell off the horse. you can do it. you really know that since you stopped before. keep us posted.

Thank you for your kind words, madisgram! It helps a lot.