[hermeand]

- and what I am letting, allowing, them to do to me.

I read some threads here and yes, gotta admit, I have enjoyed smoking, I have needed it, I light up just by habit ... or is it the nico every 20 minutes like they say..

They say you have to be ready to do whatever it takes. I understand hitting bottom, I have before.

I look around my home and imagine myself having fits of anger and throwing things staying quit - I don't really want to - but I would have to be willing to do whatever it takes! -

My kids are out of the house, so it would often be a battle with myself, w/o affecting anyone else, you know? Seems like the *perfect* time to quit, to deal with this -

Quit for a year awhile back. A crisis happened, and I went back, and have only gotten a few days or two weeks in before crashing and burning ...

I don't want to affect anyone else in this!! I don't want to be mean to anyone b/c of my battle!

I KNOW I would need a constant source of support - they have those now, don't they - hotlines and things?

When I quit before, I had the support of a very active online stop smoking board. And instant messaging ... at that time it was a real decision to quit. I remember my first post - "I just put down the cigarettes and picked up a patch." I was determined and that made it doable ... and lots of people in the same place.. but I really really wanted it.

Anybody familiar with the program probably understands "I want to want to quit."

I'm at the 'want to.' I'm at the 'I'm so frightened silly at what I will become if I will quit!!!' I'm like, I DON'T WANNA GO THROUGH THAT MONTHS OF AWFULNESS

Yeah, simple but not easy. Just don't bend the elbow ....

that's the end of my rant for now lol

[Suki22]

I'm right there with you! I want to quit. I quit for nine years and started up a year ago. it's so stupid and I hate myself for it, but then it quiets my anxiety if only for a minute. I don't know how to quit this time around. I have patches, electronic cigarette, lozenges, but I'm missing the willpower! the first time I quit was on a bet with two coworkers. they were both smoking the very next day and I kept on without them. perhaps you and I can set a date and time and see who can last the longest?

[oncamethelight]

Hello,..
I understand what a struggle this is. My mom died of ling cancer a few yrs ago. Shortly after, my husband quit smoking ande asked me to quit as well, fearing I would follow in my moms footsteps. (it scares me to think about that)
My husband quit with barely a struggle at all. Much different for me though. I have struggled alot. I quit drinking and doing drugs (5 yrs of sobriety) but smoking has been nearly impossible for me to give up!
I quit cold turkey on oct. 8th........but have been sneaking them here and there for the last couple of weeks :-( I have not smoked since yesterday and am gonna try and consider myself back "on the wagon" with it. One day at a time!!!!

[hermeand]

Originally Posted by oncamethelight

Hello,..
I understand what a struggle this is. My mom died of ling cancer a few yrs ago. Shortly after, my husband quit smoking ande asked me to quit as well, fearing I would follow in my moms footsteps. (it scares me to think about that)
My husband quit with barely a struggle at all. Much different for me though. I have struggled alot. I quit drinking and doing drugs (5 yrs of sobriety) but smoking has been nearly impossible for me to give up!
I quit cold turkey on oct. 8th........but have been sneaking them here and there for the last couple of weeks :-( I have not smoked since yesterday and am gonna try and consider myself back "on the wagon" with it. One day at a time!!!!

Originally Posted by Suki22

I'm right there with you! I want to quit. I quit for nine years and started up a year ago. it's so stupid and I hate myself for it, but then it quiets my anxiety if only for a minute. I don't know how to quit this time around. I have patches, electronic cigarette, lozenges, but I'm missing the willpower! the first time I quit was on a bet with two coworkers. they were both smoking the very next day and I kept on without them. perhaps you and I can set a date and time and see who can last the longest?

To you Suki - I have a drawer-ful of patches, the inhaler, gum, etc.

Blah - since I wrote that I am right back up there

oncamethelight - First, five years clean & sober - wow that is great.

We used to have Nicotine Anonymous here. But the quit members did not follow Program and got so egotistical & feeling/acting superior that I quit going. It was a very small group, maybe five.

That was a long time ago.

Right now I'm not in a place to quit

[roads]

Originally Posted by oncamethelight

I quit drinking and doing drugs (5 yrs of sobriety) but smoking has been nearly impossible for me to give up!

Me too! And so many folks in my AA group have found the same thing over the years as one or another of them has tried to quit. Just under half have succeeded. We are working on a special stop-smoking group for them because it seems to take something special--have a retired T from a nearby college heading it up.

Best of luck to all of you! (((((((( ** special Stop Smoking hugs ** ))))))))