[D. girl]

So.. yesterday I went out all day with my fiance and his friends. At night we where on our way to pick up a friend and one of the guys rolled a joint that contained sintetic weed (where I am from sintetic is legal, not marihuana) And I didn't know the kind of trip that I was gonna be in because no one explained it to me nor the consequences (a bad trip).Well... I got a bad trip...It was so strong and so confusing I was begging for it to stop and no one in the car could hear what I was saying because I thought I was screaming out loud but I wasn't.... all my words where in my mind. I saw everything and everyone moving fast forward and they looked like cartoons.. it was night.. I was so damn scared I thought I was gonna die, that I was never coming out of that feeling.. I was next to my fiance and I remember telling him to make it stop and he said "you gotta let it pass because I don't know how to make it better" and that's when I lost it. I kept saying "I'm not okay, please help me" "god help me please"...."kill me! I don't want this! Kill me!" I begged.. I cried... I tried my best.. I started having a panic attack and no one could help because they couldn't hear my thoughts when I thought they could.. I don't know if this is the correct place to post this.. but I needed to talk this out and also see if anyone has ever been in this situation..

[kaliope]

i am so sorry this happened to you. i have never been big on drugs but i partake occasionally when i go to a music festival but i always make sure i know what i am taking because of my mental health issues and i am terrified of having a bad trip. i make sure i have people with me who can take care of me if anything goes wrong and that they know where my antianxiety meds are if i need them and cant think to get them myself. but mostly, i dont do drugs for this very reason. it just isnt worth the risk.

[D. girl]

kaliope.
I had people with me that take care of me, my fiance was there sitting next to me and I knew what I was smoking. Sintetic is a legal drug that gives you the same feeling as marihuana does (and I smoke marihuana, it calms my personalities when things get brutal). What I didn't know was the type of sickness that could give sometimes since I thought it was the same bad reaction that I have already experienced when smoking weed. You sweat cold and you feel sick to your belly and that's all. This is what everyone in the car knew, they have never experienced what I lived, and while I was in that state all they saw was me with my eyes closed resting on my fiance's shoulder and looking sick. They thought I just had the sickness that we all knew. They didn't really know that I hallucinated or that I had a panic attack because what I thought I was saying out loud didn't come out of my mouth.. I was just thinking every word.