[noirkitten]

in school and when it comes to being intresting. if someone were to ask me ''what kind of stuff are you into and why'' i wouldent be able to answer. most days i just resreach online about veganisem, read fittness magizines that i never apply to in my real life, and listin to 'wiliam control'' songs on youtube. im so fukking dull!
i actully like reading. i feel this sort of excitment whenever i go into a brans and nobel. but it always takes me like two months just to finish one book! even if it's intresting. i wish my body and mind would relax long enoughto read a good book. i would really like to take up this hobby.
i feel like such a loser sometimes being this unintresting and dull. does anyone else out there feel this way?

[alias123]

Originally Posted by noirkitten

in school and when it comes to being intresting. if someone were to ask me ''what kind of stuff are you into and why'' i wouldent be able to answer. most days i just resreach online about veganisem, read fittness magizines that i never apply to in my real life, and listin to 'wiliam control'' songs on youtube. im so fukking dull!
i actully like reading. i feel this sort of excitment whenever i go into a brans and nobel. but it always takes me like two months just to finish one book! even if it's intresting. i wish my body and mind would relax long enoughto read a good book. i would really like to take up this hobby.
i feel like such a loser sometimes being this unintresting and dull. does anyone else out there feel this way?

I used to feel like that, too. For instance, if someone at school were to ask me "what radio station do you like?" I would ask them, "what do you like" And then I would just answer them their own answer back "me too!"

I didn't think that I or my interests were worth sharing, so I tried to mirror other's.

When I got older, I found out people do find me interesting. I was the same as you. I liked to read. I didn't go out that much. People were still interested in me, and I'm sure people wonder about you and want to know about you too. What you do isn't dull. You're learning about your interests. Other people could benefit from your knowledge. People like learning about what other people like.

And I think two months to finish one book isn't too bad! I often time read books to the last few chapters and it takes me YEARS to get there and finish them. You probably also have school work and stuff you have to do on top of that. You don't have to feel bad about that. There's no rush to read books, it's your leisure time.

I'm sorry you can't quiet your mind. I used to have that problem, and have to read sentences over and over because my mind would think of other things while I was reading.

I hope you feel better!

[jypjoh]

i have felt that way pretty much my whole life. when i was in middle school i read books a lot. probably read 3 or 4 books a week. now i wish i could keep my attention on a book long enough to read one chapter so if you can read one in a couple months be glad you did. i too dont have anything to say when im asked about my hobbies or what i do for fun. i just say "nothing really" but telling them i have depression and dont even want to get out of bed most days isnt what i want to say. my son doesnt want me to be like this either but all i can do is take my meds and hopefully have the courage to go to counseling someday so i can enjoy life again. but my anxiety kicks in everytime i pull in the parking lot but dont go inside because talking to a stranger face to face about myself scares me. so dont be so hard on yourself and think your such a loser because the longer you do the harder its gonna be gto get up and keep going. im a cute normal size woman and i get compliments daily and i have a 7 year old that thinks im wonderful but somehow i cant see what they see and its a lonely life feeling that way because then you isolate yourself from the world as much as possible and i bet the world is a bettwer place with 5you in it. keep reading those books!

[4evaLost]

[QUOTE=jypjoh;1667062]i have felt that way pretty much my whole life. when i was in middle school i read books a lot. probably read 3 or 4 books a week. now i wish i could keep my attention on a book long enough to read one chapter so if you can read one in a couple months be glad you did. i too dont have anything to say when im asked about my hobbies or what i do for fun. i just say "nothing really" but telling them i have depression and dont even want to get out of bed most days isnt what i want to say. my son doesnt want me to be like this either but all i can do is take my meds and hopefully have the courage to go to counseling someday so i can enjoy life again. but my anxiety kicks in everytime i pull in the parking lot but dont go inside because talking to a stranger face to face about myself scares me. so dont be so hard on yourself and think your such a loser because the longer you do the harder its gonna be gto get up and keep going. im a cute normal size woman and i get compliments daily and i have

[SakuraLi]

Hey noirkitten, i have also felt like a loser most of my life with low self esteem and not feeling worthy or good enough. but when i started community college fresh out on high school a decade ago I took some classes with a kind professor who encouraged me and mentored me and she was able to help me see my self worth and what i have to offer and can potentially offer as i develop myself and take risks. Now im almost done with my bachelors and i feel considerably better about myself but i still have low self esteem as it relates to relationships and socializing. but i am trying to work on this area too! sometimes all it takes is a possitive person to help mentor you to get on track. i encourage u to find a caring mentor and realize that u have lots to offer u are in school working on building up ur skills it takes time. work on believing in yourself because u are interesting. but u have to develop ur self so that comes across. anyway good luck.