What did you do right today? Part 2

I went to a resume writing workshop, even though I didn't want to.
I filled up the bird feeders with seed. Cleaned one of the nectar feeders.
I pruned the rose bushes outside my apartment, after really neglecting them for long while.
I was nice to the neighbors. I continued cleaning up my place; has a ways to go.
I made a phone call I was afraid to make (social phobia). No answer, but I made the call.

I had a good 30 minutes today when I didn't think about my pup. That's pretty good considering.

Went and saw one of my Ts. Gave a ride to 2 ladies to the hospital. Went out to eat with my mom.

Went to both jobs, went to the social security office to report some changes (boy am I in trouble now), opened my "happy journal" to write in, discovered I was out of calligraphy ink, did not flip out, gave a good search for replacement ink, found it and realized it was the wrong size, again did not flip out simply wrote on a post-it and made a mental note to buy more ink... come to think of it, perhaps that should be on a post-it too...

Made my sister laugh.

Went to work and presented a synopsis of what my job entails. Went to my pdoc and told her about last week's major depressive episode. Picked my friend up, washed her hair, had dinner with her, and went to support group.

Called my psychiatrist, and got a referral to a partial hospitalization program. Met my pastor for tea. Called a friend.

Xando, it will get better over time. You will look back and smile. Now, I feel so glad I had "my good girly" for 6 years. If you have the resources and energy, it makes good sense to put your love in a direction where it is very needed. The good you will do can be, in part, a memorial of the bond you had.

I washed a kitchen wall that was in great need of cleaning.
I left the television turned off for a good portion of the day.
I listened to some great vinyls from my father's record collection, while cleaning, and thought fond thoughts of him.
I kept going doing constructive things around my place.
I put a call in with a message that my pdoc call me back.
I ended the day with a spa-style bubble bath - candles and music. (A great comeback from the pit I was in early today.)
I read something worthwhile.

Took all of my medicine at the right time, trying to keep blood sugar level under control.

went to work. did dishes. went for short walk. went to bed early.

Spoke to the civil service person who's going ot do our wedding (going to be the 19th). It went well.

Got dressed, did my nails, and put on my makeup, even though I'm not going anywhere.

kept my cool and was polite to a dictotorial PA who thought she knew how to wash my hair better than I do and insisted my incontinence product was on correctly when it was only covering half my bum!!

Went to the zoo with my sister, her youngest daughter, and the 2 kids she babysits. Made dinner.

went to work, even though I had a horrible migraine. took a nap. just relaxed tonight.

Saw a friend waiting for a bus, so turned around and offered a lift home. Spent a few hours catching up. I wasn't sure how to react when asked if another friend and myself were "an item". Still pondering how I should have reacted to that one.

Had breakfast (for the first time this week)
Got to class on time,
Volunteered for three hours
Remembered the D&D game (but no one else did)

Put on a touch of makeup this morning even though I was just running out to do errands. I told myself to practice in case I ever get a job again. Found it made me feel better.
Went to laundromat, even though I didn't want to. Did a bunch in a megaloader.
Went to bed for the entire afternoon, which was needed cause I got very weak.
Responded to a call back about a possible job without losing my cool.
Found out how to locate a grave that hasn't been visited by anyone in a very long time and a visit from me would be good - mainly - for me.

Walked with my daughter's dance studio in a parade. Cleaned off the dining room table. Took a friend to the store and bought her some needed things.

Two good things:
1. Went out to the pharmacy - on the way there, walked THIS CLOSE to a young deer! It was so cool! He looked at me a few times, I looked back. Wow. Really neat. He was just munching away. On the way back, talked with a MI guy from Massachusetts also waiting for the bus, and then on the bus saw a former coworker, also retired, who actually said she missed me. Walking back, smelled the last blossoms on some tree. SO glad I went. I don't usually go out on the weekends, but I thought, I had promised myself I'd swim and I did, now I promise myself I'll walk in the cooler weather. I am starting to keep my promises.
2. Went to the tenants party. Skipped it the last 3 years due to anxiety. Was completely calm and ungoofy! Who IS this person?! I kind of like it! I can stand being her! I thought, PC made the difference here in who I am. It's really eerie. I am so comfortable around people. I know I will be heard? I know people like me. NOT an experience I had with the family, or really even with T's, or DBT group. That's what all this support is for? My universe is pretty small, so I could tell this was a big change.
And 3. Watched tennis. Nolo just did not give up! He is my hero. I loved when he turned to the crowd and said, WELL??? You could see his attitude change on his face, when he said to himself, am I going to just lay down for Roger, or am I going to PLAY MY TENNIS?! And he played his tennis, and then he got to dance, and the whole stadium danced with him. I really enjoyed it. I love watching tennis more AFTER I have already had my own exercise workout!

Got out of bed when I woke up. (which has been easy ????)
Cleaned the bathroom floor real good and put down clean fresh rugs. Looks nice.
Started working straightening out a bookcase, even though I didn't want to. Made a deal with myself that I only had to do one shelf. Stuck to that, too.
Visited a friend who is way too inactive. Agreed we will go to a gym together.
Vacuumed here and there.
Shopped and tried to make healthy food choices. (about 75% successful on that.)
Told myself I can survive hard things (my S.O. is in declining health.) (about 40% convinced I believe that.)

Got the heck out of the house when I realized my thoughts were really, really, really self-destructive. Went riding around with my bus driver hubby, and when he got off work, we had a mini-date. It helped a lot.

I went to garage sales. Ate out for breakfast. Pushed myself to get out of my funk by making myself do some things. Watched some movies.

So far this morning I've started the laundry. Possibly do some canning.

This is about Sunday.
I went clothes shopping and got a few things I need for job interviews.
I took all the debris out of my car (filled a plastic bag) and got my car cleaned for the first time in months.
I picked up more stuff than I could afford at the store, but made myself put it back.
I refrained from complaining about an issue concerning a neighbor. Just let it go.
I made my bed and tidied up the house.
I made myself look decent before going out to do errands.
Listened to some music I enjoyed.
Read a bit before turning off the lights.
Did not need the TV on for security.
Treated myself to a slice of pizza while out shopping.
Managed to think positively most of the day.

Slept a really long time. Folded clothes. Took caterpillar to her T. Warmed up a snack for caterpillar then took her to dance. Talked to other dance moms. Grabbed some dinner on the way home.