[doggiedo]

I'm pretty sure I should give in and finally buy a one piece. I hate my body and although I'm a size 6/8 and petite, people I work wih and friends think I'm tiny, I just don't agree. I used I be a size 00, and was super skinny and I loved it- albeit bc I was starving myself and over exercising.

Now, I prepare for a trip to Florida next week and I need to get a suit. I have no desire to look for one or even think about what type I would buy. I am average but I feel huge. Idk if I should just bag the idea and not get one at all? But I also have a pool at my apt complex and I know last summer I never went bc I didn't have a suit I felt comfy in. Idk what to do. I feel horrible about myself.

The only thing that might make me feel remotely better is to drop 20 lbs which I def can't do before summer. I only weigh 120 as it is now and in order to do that in a healthy way would be about 1 lb, max, per week. Ugh, I'm really lost here. I just wanna feel comfortable in my own skin and get a hot little suit to boot! Is that too much to ask?

[Travelinglady]

Sorry to be blunt, but have you seen a therapist to see if you aren't developing an eating disorder? It doesn't sound like to me that you need to lose any more weight either. I can assure you, many, many women will be bigger than you are if you go to a typical family beach or such place. Size 12 is considered average. Of course, that does depend on height.

I wear a one piece (size 14/16) and wear a pair of exercise shorts on top of it--and I go to the beach!

[doggiedo]

Ugh thanks for responding. I used I have one a free years back. But I can safely say I'm not engaging in those behaviors anymore but I do still have the thoughts. Idk if those ever go away. I thought about posting this in the eating disorder forum but idk if I qualify to do that, u know?

Good idea on the shorts over the suit. I have a two piece with boy shorts as the bottom half. I just hate those too!!! Ughh