Feeling disliked

Not quite certain which forum to post this on, but it may fit here.

I think this may just be in my head, but I'm not sure. I've always had low self-esteem, so it's hard to really judge things accurately. I'm not even sure if I want the answer to this, because if it's true, I don't know what to do about it.

I feel disliked here at PC. I feel like no one wants to read my threads. I feel like when my nickname is seen, people want to run away from it and have nothing to do with me. I feel alone here, even when people respond to my posts. I think it parallels my real life. I feel needy, even here. I feel like I need to keep posting and posting and posting to get things out and I'm not getting what I need and I feel rejected because of it. I'm sorry to those who have responded - I do feel very very grateful. Your posts have meant so very much to me. I have needed them.

I don't understand this awful void I feel and why I can't ever fill it. No amount of anything ever seems to fill it. I walk around pretending it doesn't exist, but I literally ache inside. I don't understand how other people function.

Massive 's to you! I'm sorry you feel disliked, I'm sure it's not true at all.
Wish you weren't feeling so low.

I’m not sure if this is helpful, sometimes I stay away from posting because honestly I have no clue myself or on other people and their feelings and experiences. So I just don’t know how to reply or be of help to that person. This is the only reason I wouldn’t reply to someone and I am sure that is the only reason why people wouldn’t reply as well or not seem sincere. I sort of understand as I am very negative person to myself, I would just tell myself well people are going to say what I’ve written above to make me feel better but it just so I just cheer up and don’t feel bad or something along those lines. However this is not logic but the negativity taking over when you dismiss a thought or comment which would be logical. It is hard to think over wise when you don’t know how or use to thinking a certain way. I don’t have the answer to this myself and searching for a fix to this as well. I don’t honestly think people wouldn’t like you here on the pc and I am sure they are more than happy to help you if they know how to be of help and they probably feel bad for not being able to help you or able to advise you. Not sure if this is an answer and I am sorry if I wasn’t of help to you. I hope you can feel at ease with yourself soon and wish you all the best.

WantingToHeal, I think this is a place of exceptional warmth on the part of others and I have seen, as you likely have, very passionate posts of empathy by others. I think it might depend on how much one needs love as to what they get here. Self acceptance is such a huge need for each of us. The more we have that from ourselves, the empathetic post is all icing on the cake.

I know I crumble when I feel I may have hurt others and maybe I have lacked the sensitivity in my postings that they might wish for. That's just me, I shoot straight from the hip a lot, and instead of softening from my past, I think I have toughened to a larger degree. I forget sometimes of what a gentle fragile center others might have.
Does that make me less sensitive, I hope not; but I do accept myself as perfectly imperfect. I know I'm all I've got, and it's gotta be enough.

The Internet is exceedingly guilty of having flamers on it, but PC seems genuine and
although we can't reach out and hug everyone physically; we do wrap our hearts around each other here. I hope that you not only can feel the love here, but embrace it for yourself, for your own strength, for your own self respect.

I know I don't dislike you, but how well do you like yourself? I hope a lot WantingToHeal. Hugs, bj

Thank you all for the wonderful replies. I appreciate them.

I do see the warmth here Callmebj.

I think it is me not liking myself. I do like PC very much. I hope I can embrace it some day. Just maybe

Hello wantingtoheal,

I appreciate you posting this on here. I assume most of us who have mental illnesses struggle with accepting ourselves and feeling worthy of care from others. I know I do. While I don't know you, I certainly can empathize with your feelings and assure you that I would not run away from your posts. It sounds like you are in a very painful place, and I wish you well. I know it is very hard to go through that kind of pain. I hope you are able to find some peace and acceptance of yourself. If you ever want to talk I always like getting messages!

Peace

dailyhealing

I would use my logic to get around those feelings; how can you feel whether someone you cannot see/experience in real time wants to read? Both are interior for each person and you can't sense someone through the computer anymore than you can order pizza to come through the screen in real time

Because what happens here online is in each of our heads, I remember that and write what I write for myself primarily, and only secondly as a response to you (in this case). I also remember that right now, I am reading what you have written and responding to you only. One cannot talk to or respond to "people" or groups or even more than one person at a time. I try to remember that and make sure I am specific in letting people know to whom I am talking; I try to respond to the original poster (you, here) only and/or make it very clear when I am responding to someone else by using their screen name or quoting them, etc. I also pretty much try to ignore others who respond to my response in someone else's post; that's why I find therapy so valuable; it's just the therapist and the client and a large part of the therapist's job is keeping the attention on the client.

(((hugs)))

I got to know some great people playing in the game section, Maybe come along and join us It can also be a huge distraction when you feel low and I know it helps me.

sorry that you feel this way, I hope to get you know you better.

Believe it or not, having a lot of responses doesn't really make that feeling go away. I have started a number of threads in another forum that have received thousands of views and hundreds of responses. I still feel like an outcast. I still feel like there is a void. I feel rejected many times. Why is that? Low self-esteem and self-worth.

Writing is very therapeutic in itself, even if no one responds to anything. Yes, I know that can really hurt and make you (us) feel rejected. I have learned that when I feel that way, I send a PM straight to those that I have formed a relationship with here on PC. They usually respond within a day. It makes me feel better. Do you have any members that you are particularly close to?

WTH, everyone else is right, you are not disliked! I agree with Mindinpieces, I sometimes avoid posting because I just don't know what to say. I'm afraid of saying the wrong thing and making everyone dislike me It's something we've all got I guess. Also, any feelings of rejection you may get despite replies might be because things like forum posts don't express emotion quite right. It's like how a lot of us flip out about emailing our Ts. If they don't reply right away or are too concise with words, what does that mean?? Probably that they're busy We've all just got to trust that everyone else means what they say and that we're all genuinely supportive.