My T says I have low self esteem, and I do agree that I do in some areas (maybe major areas), but not in all.

I have good self body image, I am a good mother, I am friendly and it seems like people generally like me, I know I am intelligent, but I lack self confidence as a musician, I won't dance or sing in public, and I have trouble trusting likely due to past child abuse. I know I think too much in black and white, but I am getting much better lately due to therapy. But If the director critisizes me before a concert, I really take it to heart, and feel terrible. Or if someone says something mean to me, I really get upset.

I just started running for the first time and I am entering 5k races even though I have a 17 mile pace. LOL

So I guess what I am wondering is, doesn't everyone have something that they are self conscience about ?

[wi_fighter]

To answer your question, definitely.

The tricky part comes when you have to decide if it negatively impacts your life in any way, or at least to the point of preventing you from functioning at your normal level.

I wish I had your T. She/he sounds awesome.

i agree with shirley. your T sounds great!

and yes, i have certain areas in that i lack self-confidence in. speaking in public always makes a wreck out of me.
xoxo pat

I guess I still need some work but eventually I think I will be okay.

I started college after an 18 year absence to change degrees maybe in psych or elememenary art . I am taking speech this fall and maybe that might help me in public. ( unless I fall on my butt, LOL) HeeHee

Oh, yeah , My T is great! Plus he isn't bad looking either! LOL I am lucky enough to see him working out at the gym too!
Well maybe he is right, I do lack self confidence, because I hated the fact he would run around me on the track, while I was doing the elpictical machine, and I didn't like him looking at my butt! LOL Does he have to right all the time? LOL
Thanks !

oooooooooooooooooo. i worked with a doc in ER that is just plain EYE CANDY.......i sent my 93 year old friend in one day when she was very ill and she told me that as sick as she was, her heart just jumped when she saw him. i tease him about it all the time. it embarrasses him......... never hurts to have a good-looking dude around..........xoxoxo pat

Yup, love the eye candy! What really was heart popping was when I first saw him at the gym because I didn't know they he worked out there. Well I was doing a timed walk to test my fitness. Well I get to the last 2 laps, and then my T goes running right past me, then he turned around and looked at me. I was so shocked I amost fell right over! LOL But now getting a an occational look at my hot T , has keep me stickin to my exercise program! LOL Now that is goooooood therapy!

[wi_fighter]

hahahahahahahaha, oh that is too good.

As long as it doesn't cross any doctor/patient boundaries, keep up that exercise regimen.

As long as it doesn't cross any doctor/patient boundaries, keep up that exercise regimen.

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Well I keep trying to, but he won't! LOL I just hate hitting the wall with his boundries!

Is it all his fault ya know, if he wasn't so sexy running around me and doing crunches on the floor, looking so incrediabilly hot, then I could control myself! How dare him, right! lol

[(JD)]

Well, he might consider changing his workout time to avoid you, but odds are his time is scheduled pretty tight already. He shouldn't have to give up his health because you are infactuated with him. You mentioned you are a mother. Are you a single mom? That must be a tough job for you, as well. TC!

Hi Sky!

I don't see him much during the warm months because he runs outside, but during the winter I see him maybe 2 or 3 times a week. We don't talk to each other other than to say Hi. He won't be social with me. He does have other clients that work out there (because they told me), so I don't think he can avoid not running into us because we live in a small city.

We have talked about this a lot, there has been some uncomforable situations that have happened , mainly me worring about his health and him dying, but we have worked through them. This situation has caused some very good discussions and therapy has resulted. Plus he has seen me become social butterfly at the gym, when before therapy I was a wallflower. So this situtation has given him and I a lot of insite about me and my progress. But of course I have seen some of his negative qualities too. I am mainly joking about crossing the line with him. I am married for 13 years with 2 kids, and I don't do affairs. But I do have fun fantasing about it, but it will not happen in real life. I know that 100% , he is way to ethical and has a huge reputation in the communitity. I am sorry if my thoughts are upsetting anyone.

[desirae]

Hell yes. I think that I'm a good dancer and an okay singer. But I'm to self conscience to do both around anybody accept my kids.

I also hate my body. I feel like my boobs deflated after I breastfed my daughter for a year, and I feel soggy for being 20.

But I do think I'm an okay mother and that I'm intelligent and deep.

[(JD)]

I'm sure your working out daily will add to your dancing ability.

I so get what you are saying, only my kids have seen me dance and sing. And the breastfeeding things, well yup, I did too, for over 2 years with my two. But I wouldn't have done it any other way! They say it is due more to pregancy than breastfeeding, but I am not so sure. LOL