[youwillrise]

i think everyone gets a bit jealous of someone for whatever reason

but i tend to be jealous of EVERYONE. there isn't anyone in the world who i've come across who i am not jealous of for some reason or another. i dont perceive myself as having many great qualities. i'm not particularly good at anything and the things i am fairly good at, i dont feel i'm good enough at. i'm not amazing at anything. that's what i want. i want to be amazing at something. i dont like the idea of being mediocre, but i am.

i look at people and think "wow, why cant i do/have/be that" - will i be accepted, liked, wanted more if i do? why am i seeking for those things? because i dont accept, like or want myself. probably. i guess it wont really matter until i accept, like and want myself, but how do i get to that point? i've tried many roads to get here (therapy, redirecting my mind, spending more time in nature, meditating, a slew of other things i'm sure), but it always comes back to where it is. i have these times where i'm like "yeah! let's do this. i'm awesome! i matter" but then...i lose it again.

i dont want to be jealous of the accomplishments of others...i want to be inspired by them. but then, i'm still comparing myself to those other people because what if i dont do it as well as they do?

my mind just keeps going in circles.

[gayleggg]

Jealousy is truely the Green Eyed Monster. It will eat you alive and keep you from enjoying your life. Have you sought counseling? It might be of help to do so. I can see that you want to be free of it and I think there are ways to work on getting past jealousy that a counselor might be able to help with. You are not alone with this issue.
Good luck,
Gayle

Being amazing at something doesn't make not jealous of other people. I know this from personal experience.

I wish I knew the answer though....I'm very jealous of other people and according to others' opinions I'm apparently "amazing" at more than one thing. And guess who I'm jealous of a lot? The so-called "mediocre" people.

[A Red Panda]

This is something I tell my students:

Everyone you meet is better than you are at something. At the same time, you are better than they are at something else. Age doesn't matter.

[youwillrise]

its very true that age doesnt matter. ive been jealous (unfortunately) of all ages of people. older, younger, same age.

for me, its not only abilities and talents that make me jealous of others...its also relationship successes. family, friends, lovers...i dont really have many good relationships in my life. so when i see people who are clearly loved, wanted, etc...thats even harder for me than the other things that make me jealous. seeing friends chatting away...seeing happy families...it all just makes me feel like im worthless. i have people tell me ad nauseum that im the sweetest person ever...yet, i have no friends. i must not be sweet enough.

i have no relationship with my family, really. i dont know. being lonely and useless is not a good combo