All new struggle

I have suffered from a lot of criticism and right now it is all catching up with me. Criticism about what I buy, what I do, what I like, it feels magnified at the moment. I stand there and try to build myself up but my mind brings hurtful moments back that make it worse. I knw there have been complements from some too but right now it is all being drowned out. Truth, I am a good shopper, a good designer, a life long artist, pianist, past school teacher and I try to be very nice to people too. I work hard to keep my house clean and I am very tidy in my own self too. I really have deserved better than the amount of attack that comes against me. I have really lost a lot of faith in my family related to recent lack of support. Too much hurt!

The worst hurts always come from family ... just too much connection, history, expectations, hopes ... you name it. Maybe it would be best to politely disconnect for a time and reach out to friends right now to get the love you are needing. That is why we need friends. Family can't do it all for us and sometimes they just can't/won't be what we need.

Very helpful thoughts!