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A side from my girlfiend of 5 years stealing from me and my best friend betraying me I feel as if I have lost a big part of me. I once use to be so confident in my self and would set alot of goals for my self and work achieve them no matter what it took. Pretty much I knew what I wanted and there was never a time in my life where I didnt know what my next move was gonna be. I use to want to learn as much as I could in my job. I have been a house painter for almost 5 years, and my other job learning to become a property manager. I know your all saying painting doesnt take much skill and everyone can do it. The stuff you see people doing on tv with tape and all that....I dont do that, its all free hand. But anyway after all that has happend to me I dont seem to care as much about it anymore. I feel that im stuck in first gear all the time and cant get out. I feel that when people are talking to me they wont care what I have to say, or what im talking about is wrong. Like no one would notice if I feel off the face of the earth. I think about my life now and im like ya I have nothing good going for me. I have been working with my boss for almost a year now. I paint with him and hes the one teaching me about property management. I spend 60+hrs a week with him so I guess you could say that we know each other pretty good and have become workers....as in I dont look at him as my boss. Not that I dont have respect for him at all, well its hard to explain. But lately when im at work...he knows what im capable of and I feel that he babys me all the time. Always reminding me of things that I know how to do and he knows that I know how to do them as well. It makes me feel stupid. Like he has no confidence in me and inreturn I have none in my self. Its just a mess everywhere!

Actually, when I read that you were a house painter and learning to be a property manager I thought I would like to have those skills. I wouldn't know where to start. I have other skills, but with a house I need to sell, your skills could be really useful for me right now.

You have some real strengths. If you are serious about what you do and motivated to do a good job, you will do well. It sounds like you like your work, right?

You might like to take a look at the Psychotherapy forum too, and look at the list of cognitive distortions (It's thumbtacked to the top of that forum). See if any of those look familiar to you. You sound like someone with a lot of potential who is taking things really hard right now, and making some assumptions about how other people perceive you.

Welcome to PC! I hope that you find what you need here.
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Hi there Bryan --

It sounds like you are going through some hard times emotionally. It's horrible to be betrayed by those we love and trust. It's a wallop in the solar plexus. Some things happened to me in 2003, and now it's 2007, and I'm just starting to feel emotionally strong and healthy. Perhaps your boss empathizes with what you are going through, and his actions are out of compassion. I am so greatful for all the people who coddled me and didn't say, "Snap out of it" and so forth.

Give yourself time, Bryan.

I know that my boss (Ed) has been watching my back threw it all. Its so hard to talk to anyone about whats going on in my life. I feel that my problems that im dealing with are not that big of a deal to others and there problems are worse then mine. I always think like that and I say nothing to no one and in return I start to feel worse...like im standing alone. Its starting to seem like there isnt a light at the end of the tounnel.

Bryan, Hope everything works out for you. Good men with kind hearts like you and me are few and far between these days.

Thanks for the kind words cajun, I thought like that for along time too...that I was a good find..in my eyes. Im a very hard worker and will do whatever it takes to finish the job...no matter how late it is. Im a very loyal person and never cheated or lied to my ex g/f and always put her ahead of me. Now it seems like people are not intrested in someone like me. Not that I want to do these things but it seems like the only way people are happy and get the most out of things is to lie, cheat and steel. People only look at how much money you have, what you have in your home, what kind of car you have and so on. I dont know anymore...

Bryan, there are many people out there who don't judge by what you have.....many.......personally, i'd rather meet a hard worker and someone who can think for themselves than someone who sits around while the interest piles up.........

painting is very, very hard. it isn't easy. i have a friend who won't let me do anything but prime and very little of that. and i can make teensy tiny jewelry....but put a brush in my hand and "bar the door".......property management is an excellent field to be in these days. there are always going to be more and more renters and having the ability to manage property, know the values, etc. will do you very well.........

don't be so hard upon yourself.....we all do it. i do.....and we need one another to jab us at times and tell us to "get over it".....

and it also sounds to me as if your boss is being kind....not overly bossy. i'd love for someone to have my back......xoxoxo pat