[anothercliché]

I'm not entirely sure if this is the proper subforum to post this, but it seems the most appropriate on first glance. If I'm wrong I do apologize and I will not be offended if it is moved or deleted.

A problem I have consistently is that I get the feeling that I've cheated life, that I was born into a life that I didn't deserve. So many people could've been born into my shoes. People with determination, people with ambition, people with vision, people with talent, and so forth. Instead I'm me. I was born into an upper middle class family to stable loving parents and surrounded by a network of people who were always willing to help me. I could've been the next Napoleon, the next Kubrik, the next Hawkings. Instead I saw all of the gifts life showered on me from the start, gifts that BILLIONS of people would sacrafice anything for, and I used it to wipe my rear. I cheated life, I got what I didn't D. I should have been born to scroungers, to vagabonds, to starving paupers in a far flung land, to parents who loathed me and were openly disgusted by my existence. Instead I was given so much and wasted it all, and I feel overwhelmingly guilty about squandering all of my potential and allowing what could've been the start of something beautiful to turn into... well, me. I again realize this is a rant and not an actual question, and for that I'm sorry. What are your thoughts?

[cryingontheinside]

I guess you shouldnt feel guilty for the family or lifestyle you were brought into.
If you dont feel that you have lived your life right, its never too late to change i guess. Is there sny particular reason why you feel un undeserving? You don't have to answer that question unless you want to.

[1w9n72bbetter]

Originally Posted by anothercliché

A problem I have consistently is that I get the feeling that I've cheated life, that I was born into a life that I didn't deserve. So many people could've been born into my shoes. People with determination, people with ambition, people with vision, people with talent, and so forth. Instead I'm me.

I cheated life, I got what I didn't D. I should have been born to scroungers, to vagabonds, to starving paupers in a far flung land, to parents who loathed me and were openly disgusted by my existence. Instead I was given so much and wasted it all, and I feel overwhelmingly guilty about squandering all of my potential.

This is also how I feel sometimes. But then I also try to ask myself why I am like this. And my answer is that maybe because I have not yet found my purpose in life until this time. I believe that to have a purpose in life is important. Maybe it will be best for us to know our purpose in life. (((Hugs)))

[anothercliché]

Originally Posted by cryingontheinside

I guess you shouldnt feel guilty for the family or lifestyle you were brought into.
If you dont feel that you have lived your life right, its never too late to change i guess. Is there sny particular reason why you feel un undeserving? You don't have to answer that question unless you want to.

Well, I feel undeserving because I haven't accomplished anything and I have no skills, accomplishments, nor talents. Anyone else could've lived my life better than I have and so I feel undeserving of these bounties.

[ManOfConstantSorrow]

Originally Posted by anothercliché

I'm not entirely sure if this is the proper subforum to post this, but it seems the most appropriate on first glance. If I'm wrong I do apologize and I will not be offended if it is moved or deleted.

A problem I have consisten... I feel overwhelmingly guilty about squandering all of my potential and allowing what could've been the start of something beautiful to turn into... well, me. I again realize this is a rant and not an actual question, and for that I'm sorry. What are your thoughts?

This is a question I rather think that we all ask at some time or one form or another, and the answer is rather more complex that a simple relationship between the material aspects of the familial home and subsequent accomplishment.

I am not sure I believe that you have no accomplishments, as you certainly put your feelings into words well and you have much self-awareness (tho' I suspect it is somewhat skewed from the truth).. Courage my friend to look closely at your life and know yourself better, it is never too late - I know.

[cat2992]

I think what you're going though sounds like you're feeling directionless. I agree with you that having a purpose is important. I once heard a quote -source unknown. "The only thing a man is entitled to is the fruits of his own labors". I would encourage you to take on some volunteer activities. Contact the local United Way who will help set you up with an organization that needs help and may be of interest to you. If you don't click with that opportunity, there are hundreds of others. Giving money to charity is one thing, but investing your time, sweat and energy is a whole different way of giving back. For some people volunteering helps put life into perspective and not only keeps us humble but makes us thankful for what we've got. Good luck!

[hamster-bamster]

Originally Posted by anothercliché

I should have been born to scroungers, to vagabonds, to starving paupers in a far flung land, to parents who loathed me and were openly disgusted by my existence.

No, not that. Had you been born to loving parents who were not at all disgusted by your existence but who did not have the means or desire to spoil you, that would have been perfect, but you were born into wealth and now are searching for purpose.

That, on the merits. On the quality of writing, everything is great - "starving paupers in a far flung land" is a good find - so one wonders what you plan to do with the gift of writing ability to help you become less spoiled and more appreciative/

[MotownJohnny]

I agree - if you feel this way, remember tomorrow is always a new day, you can change it. You obviously are unhappy where you are, so why not make plans to move in a fresh new direction.

I know about the UMC thing. Money doesn't buy happiness.

[anothercliché]

Originally Posted by hamster-bamster

No, not that. Had you been born to loving parents who were not at all disgusted by your existence but who did not have the means or desire to spoil you, that would have been perfect, but you were born into wealth and now are searching for purpose.

That, on the merits. On the quality of writing, everything is great - "starving paupers in a far flung land" is a good find - so one wonders what you plan to do with the gift of writing ability to help you become less spoiled and more appreciative/

Nothing :-|
I may be slightly above average as far as my articulation goes, but I have nothing of interest to say nor do I have any concept of speaking in a way that isn't pompous. I tend to over elaborate and that bores people... catching myself being a hypocrite. Short answer is nothing, I'm not good at its nuances.