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Old Jun 20, 2005, 10:57 PM
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I thought I i had done it, that I had improved my self esteem , that I knew I was worth more. it hough t I was over using my body, I thought i was I really did. I want to be. WHy do I just go numb and allow it? its not like I want it to happen, but I dopn't do anything to stop it, in fact I go along with it why?? How do I stop this cycle. 2 years without it happening, then one night, one stupid night . Drinking didn't help, but why!!!!!!! I don't wnat to be that person, I thought I wasn't that person, I thought i could change had changed. do I succumb to life that is obviously meant to be, I don't enjoy it, I never Ihave, I just do it cause its what they want, damn it I am a person I deserve better, how do I sto pt his???

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Old Jun 21, 2005, 02:37 AM
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Hi being newish and all I do not know you or your issues like some others in here may but ..do you see a T? If not see one, if so make an emergency appointment IT WILL HELP IT STOP

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Old Jun 21, 2005, 12:08 PM
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mytime, I don't think that we have met, so let me start by saying hi! Nice to meet you. You can call me Mel.

I read you post and thought wow! I know those feelings you are having. I know them really well.
I don't know your story, but I know your feelings.

I know the feeling of thinking you have changed, just to fall again. I know that feeling of wanting to be someone other than who you are. That is the point where I get confused. I am changing me. I have stopped the flirting to get attention. I have stopped the giving myself away because it is what they want. It is about you, what do you want. You want to be treated like a normal person, to be respected, to be loved for you not for what you can give someone else, right?
I know those feelings!!
My advise is this: 1. Be honest with yourself.
2. Don't rush it. it takes time to change things we don't like about ourselves.
3. Don't think you have to be perfect. Allow yourself to make mistakes.

We are humans, and unfortunately for some of us, we have had hard lives that make every day difficult.
You are a worthy person that deserves to be loved for YOU, Not what you can give to someone!

I know that it is tough and that it feels like a never ending circle. I have been going through it since i was 6. I am 28 now.

You ask yourself, Who am I? Is this how I am supposed to be? If I change, will it help? If I change, will I like myself any better?

For me, thinking back to all of the times I did things because it was what someone else wanted... only hurt me more.

Please don't feel like you are alone, I am here with ya!
I am here anytime you need a shoulder to cry on or a place to put your soap box. k?
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Old Jun 21, 2005, 06:54 PM
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One's change is not a sudden, nor a "final" situation... it is a process. One relapse does not mean you haven't changed. imo. One drifting back to past does not make it part of the future. TC TRIGGER i did it again
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Old Jun 22, 2005, 09:00 AM
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Take it slow and easy and you can do this!

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Old Jun 22, 2005, 09:55 PM
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it is so nice to know that someone feels the same way, I have been kinda reclusive in the last few days just tryingto sort this all out cause I thought I was doing so well. I don't like using my body like that, and flirting to get attention....... you sound like I feel.

I do believe I can do this, I have to , I have my kids to think about, its just scary to know that it is that easy to fall back to old ways. I am trying though
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Old Jun 22, 2005, 09:58 PM
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Old Jun 23, 2005, 11:43 AM
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mytime,

I hope that you feel better!!! I am right here for ya!

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Old Jun 25, 2005, 04:21 PM
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