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Old Dec 01, 2010, 11:29 AM
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I had another appointment today. Quite frankly, it was boring.

We really did not talk much about anything at all.. mostly about home schooling and my lack of motivation in daily life.

I don't know how to talk to a T. It has been so long since I did this and all I did as a kid/teen was talk about the 'obvious' reasons I was there - my brother was very violent, I ran away from home, I mis-behaved a lot, etc. We never really dug deep though and worked through any issues though. It felt so... pointless.

The past couple weeks since my last appointment have been really crappy. It has been stressful, my husband and I have had some issues, I have been very depressed, had bad dreams, my brother's birthday was Monday... just lots of things. But we did not talk about any of that. I did not talk about any of that.

When I started T, I talked about how my depression has killed my motivation and made me unable to function (my 'reason for being there'). So that comes up every time I'm there. But I don't really want to talk about whether or not my motivation has improved. You know? That's not the ISSUE. It's just a symptom of the issue. I peek at the paper that she has for each appointment. So far I a have been dx'd 'Depressive Disorder NOS'. That kind of shows how little we talk about.

Last time we did talk a bit about my teens and about when I ran away from home and such... so I guess I was kind of feeling like we were going to continue along that vein, you know? Talk a bit more about what has lead me to this... I don't know.

I feel like a failure at therapy because I can't just open my mouth and say 'this is what my problem is... help me.' My husband offered to make me a list of things to bring up. I told him to feel free.
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Old Dec 01, 2010, 12:02 PM
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What do you think is holding you back from talking more about what is really important to you?
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Old Dec 01, 2010, 03:40 PM
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I don't know...
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Old Dec 02, 2010, 05:25 AM
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Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........

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Old Dec 02, 2010, 03:31 PM
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Last time we did talk a bit about my teens and about when I ran away from home and such... so I guess I was kind of feeling like we were going to continue along that vein, you know? Talk a bit more about what has lead me to this.
What prevented this from being discussed today?
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Old Dec 02, 2010, 05:35 PM
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I think that an interesting and helpful thing for you to say in therpay next time is exactly, "My motivation or lack therof for improving is not the issue to me. It's just a symptom of the issue." It's a great statement that could lead to enlightenment.

Wish you the best!
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Old Dec 02, 2010, 06:02 PM
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What prevented this from being discussed today?
She didn't bring it up... the conversation didn't go in that direction.. for the most part, she asks me questions and I answer them and we discuss things. Last time we got on the topic of my writing and that lead me to talk about what my first book was about - when I ran away. So it went from there. This week, it just didn't go in that direction.
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Old Dec 02, 2010, 07:44 PM
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for the most part, she asks me questions and I answer them and we discuss things.
What if you said to your T:

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Today I would like to talk some about when I ran away from home and such... Talk a bit more about what has lead me to this.
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