The injury

One afternoon, this young girl playing in an old junk car, cut herself on a piece of metal that was hanging from the top of the car. The sudden pain made her heart skipped a beat. In a couple of second she felt the blood coming down her face. And then the panic!
All she thought about was to stop the blood. She put her two hands one on top of the other blocking the wound but it didn’t work and the blood kept flowing between her fingers. Soon her face, hands, her clothes was turning red from the injury on top of her head. She new she was cut badly and she had to go home but she didn’t wanted to go there. She felt she was a very bad girl. That she has done something so wrong! That she has hurt herself and she knew better then to do this. The person waiting for her at home would be so mad because she would scare her with all this blood. She would make her angry for not having been careful enough. She might even make her die. The guiltiness inside this young girl was confusing her thinking and as the time passed she was losing more and more blood. But she didn’t moved. She just stood beside the old junk car.

A neighbor going by saw the young girl. He went to her, told her something that she didn’t understood, and then took her by the hand and brought her home. When she came close to her house she saw her coming outside. This person who was suppose to help the child was really angry, both her hands on her chest, yelling:

“How dare you scare me like this! You know I’m afraid of blood! What an awful child you are! You are going to make me take a heart attack! Can you see how I’m shaking! You are a very bad girl! I don’t know why I keep you! One day you are going to kill me! “

Then the neighbor told the woman that the child needed stitches.

“ See how bad you are! Now you are going to cost me money to bring you to hospital! What an awful child!”

On her way to the hospital, all the young girl could think about is how bad she is. What an awful child she is! By playing in that old junk car she has almost kill her mother.

If it had been for the neighbor the young girl would have died. She would have preferred to die then scaring her mother.

Time0

[Ryan]

Oh dear Lord... I am so sorry you had to endure this. No child should ever be treated this way. I want you to know how brave I think you are for being able to speak of this. I know how difficult it is. Have you been able to talk to your t about this? Either way, if you ever need to talk and are comfortable talking to me, you are more than welcome to PM me. Many safe hugs your way... if that's ok. Please take great care of yourself now. Much love.

Ry

[kimmydawn]

I'm so sorry (((((((((((((((((time0))))))))))))))))))))) I feel such a relation to this post.

[BlueFaith]

(((((((((time0)))))))))
I am so sorry you had to endure this type of abuse and pain.

((((((((Time0)))))))))
Some people can't handle being the adult as a parent. I'm sorry you had to worry about your mother instead of your own injuries.
You needed a hug and reassurance that you were going to be okay. A kiss on the head and gently wrapped in a pair of arms carrying you to the car to take you to the hospital.

I hope deep down inside you understand and believe that you deserved that and not what you experienced in this sad reality.
I'm going to hug you again-but this time I'm going to hug you as that little girl who was scared and bleeding. (((((((((LittleTime0)))))))))
I'm really sorry you hurt yourself.

[bipolar_bear]

I am so sorry time0. My heart goes out to you that you did not get the loving arms and comforting that you deserved. I hope now you have them in your life. Giant hugs to the litle girl that didn't get them when she should have.

My sincere "Thank you" to all of you! Your understanding and caring means a lot to me!

There is more to this story and a lot more stories but this is one of them. My mother is still alive today and she is still the same way as she was back then. I did forgive her and I will forgive her today and tomorrow for whatever damage she will do to me because i'm her daughter but this is my only reason why I give her my forgiveness.

I have learned from her abuse. I have learned to never do this to my kids or any kids.

((((((((((((((Ryan)))))))))))))))

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(((((((((Bipolar_Bear))))))))))

I have to call my mother today. I have been brainwashing myself for the last 2 weeks to do this call. I'm going to do this call because I'm her daughter. But I'm not looking forward to it. I know I will be a mess when I will hang up the phone. She has such a great power over me.

I love you all! I am glad to be here among you all!

Again thank you!
Time0

I'm so so sorry for what you went through. I can really relate to your story-- as you probably could have guessed.
The only difference was that I was reprimanded for causing my mother more work for having to clean up the red stains on my clothes after a horrible bicycle crash-- I was also bad for upsetting my mother with the awful site of my skinned knees w/ emdedded rocks, bleeding wrists, palms and chin and bleeding nose.

How dare I ring the front door bell-- while getting red stains on the front cement step--- I thought I was doing the right thing........ but I was wrong--- I was a bad child. Maybe just standing in the front yard away from anything that could stain, until someone noticed me, would have been better........

Yes, Time0-- I understand, and I also can understand how there are more stories-- I am so sorry for that and can also understand. Please know I am thinking of you and I hope you keep sharing.

mandy

[wisewoman]

hey sweetie, I know those stories all too well myself. I guess I know the pain and the alone and shame that we are suddenly vulnerable. I am uncertain however, why you are calling the mother. How can you continue to injure yourself that way? Please take care of you.

Little girl who cut her head. Oh look, you know heads bleed a lot when they are cut. Ooh, I see it's a small cut with lots of blood and I can help to make the bleeding stop. I will hold it tight and use ice and get a nice doctor to close it up for you. The doctor will clean the cut and give you a little stick to make the cut numb and he/she will close it up. Afterwards I will help you getr the blood from your hair. You know what is pretty neat? It's like magic, lets soak these clothes in cold water and watch the water turn red. Pretty soon the red will all be in the water and not on your clothes. I think you need an ice pack to help it feel better and here is a cup of cocoa for you. BNow lets tell silly stories about frog and toad.

[Overcastbutclearing]

Celebrating your courage to write that part of your life down and post it.
I understand the emotional side of it. Always having to worry about how things are going to effect your mother...while you are standing there bleeding.
(((Time0)))
Thanks for sharing a part of you.

Thank you so much!

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(((((((((((((sj))))))))))))))))))))))

Each of your replies has touch my heart!

I do still call my mother from time to time to stay in contact with her because I have made this promise to someone that is very very dear to me. I can't brake this promise.

Thank you!
Time0

[wisewoman]

Please promise yourself to take care of YOU first. No promise makes us endure abuse. You don't deserve it.