This is hard to write but will try anyway!

I am dreading the next 2-3 weeks we should hear back from the police about my dad as the police were going the CPS with the evidence so they can re-arrest dad ( the thing I call him now) Something in my mind is telling me that NOTHING WILL BE DONE, The same happened with my brother 8 years a go just before the trial it was all dropped ( such a long story) This is when my mental health problems started, Having my brother laughing at me was the biggest insult EVER!

The police I thought at the time were not doing there job and I took a overdose, Most of my family believed my brother it truly hurt, I kept it a secret for years, My brother sexually abused his daughter and my 2 nieces it is the reason why I spoke out, I felt so let down by the system, My mum I just don't understand why she chooses my brother and the thing over her own children.

I wish I kept my mouth shut, It achieved nothing, The thing has abused god knows how many, He comes across though as a really charming man even the police say this, He will fool the jury if this gets to court, He is now disabled, I am sick with worry, This is my family, It has been torn apart by all of this. I really hate this and me at the moment.

[Trippin2.0]

Gentle 's to you my dear friend. I have no pearls of wisdom, and for that I apologize, but I do have time to listen, respond and pray for you. Please take care of yourself during this trying time ahead

[Sannah]

[kindachaotic]

Dear Kittyclaws,
You have brought to light the awful things done to you. IMO you are very brave especially knowing your brother got off scott free.
I could beg you to not let this torment you but I'm not in your shoes. I will beg you not to hate yourself, what you did was the right thing. No matter how old or sickly he is doesn't excuse what he did to you.

I am so sorry this has torn your family apart but their denial or choice of how/who they believe is not your fault, none of this is. You were a child.
Maybe with your brother at least being accused & now the thing facing charges, the courts will see there is a connection/pattern. Either way please try and be kind to yourself. May be rambling here, just wanted to respond.
Many prayers coming your way.

[shezbut]

Kittyclaws

I can understand your misery very well.

Coming forward, to protect the innocence of others, often isn't seen or understood by those that supposedly love us. Instead, they crawl back into their protective shells and we are left alone & unprotected. It is a horrifying feeling ~ so disturbing!! I think that most other people can't relate, as they haven't been left to fight alone. They have the support of their families, and imagining otherwise is probably hard to do.

I often blame myself for speaking up, to protect my infant cousin (who was like a niece to me). Speaking up did no good for me emotionally. It hurt. But, I couldn't sit by and simply watch my abuser do the same with his daughter. I could not allow that to happen! Whether or not I liked it, my job was to stop the sick cycle occurring in my family. That was my motivation. I frequently reminded myself of that fact during the dark years, to give me the strength to keep on living.

Very sweet thoughts to you ~ you're in my hopes!

[likewater]

(((Kittyclaws))) (((shezbut))) i hurt knowing that no one spoke out when they saw what was going on in my house. After my mom wpuld try to kill us after brief stays in mental ward she would even get returned to home. She touched me ( you know what i mean ) in front of friends and family. If someone had reported her for that, even if it hadnt been succesful in stopping it at least i would
have known that the person reporting thought i was worth protecting. As it was each silent mouth pretty much gave me the message i was garbage and deserved what i got. Or thats how i interpreted it. Good for you for speaking out. Bless you. I' m so very sorry for your pain, and sorry you were in that position. I'm sorry nothing was done. The world is a screwed up place. I pray it goes better this time. Hugs. Peace.

Thanks, It is good to know that you all understand and Shez I am sorry that you blame yourself too but we shouldn't have to.

It is torment, Maybe one day we will get justice

[mandamoo42]

((((((((((kittyclaws))))))))))))) i wish there was something i cld say that wld make things feel better for you hun, really i do...but you have done the right thing and have spoken out in order to break the sick cycle of abuse which that thing perpetrated which your sick brother is continuing....now it is up to the police and the CPS to do their jobs and i know how hard it is to let go of your hopes and expectations when this is now out of your hands and in the hands of the authorities...just PLEASE promise me you will not do anything silly to yourself and let those evil bastards win...your much too nice to be leaving this world too early...and i hope THEY all rot in bloody hells for their crimes against humanity....

yours as ever

Thank you manda.

Got a letter today from the police they said they are going to need more time to gather evidence, It was supposed to be 8th May when we heard back about CPS so look's like it could be now June, The thing still remains on bail until then.

[Chibi-Akutenshi]

Politics in the well being of a person. Extremely ridiculous. Thank you for being the person to stand up and say something! It means so much to those involved. I know how it feels to be ignored by those "professionals." I hope they do what is right in this situation. And I hope you can find a way to take care of you in the meantime.