 |
| FAQ/Help |
| Calendar |
| Search |
|
#1
Dec 20, 2012, 12:28 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
I'm feeling really nervous posting this - I just don't feel safe enough to post anymore or that I can give enough on here but I woke feeling so traumatised this morning that I really need to... to, idk, just get it written down somewhere....
I woke from a dream that so closely resembles what's coming up for me right now and I haven't been able to shake the feelings off all day. In my dream I was 6, which was about when it happened, whatever 'it' was, and my dad was making me have sex with him. He was treating me, and talking to me like I was a grown woman. I've been left with so many feelings that are familiar but feeling way more intense today - distress, disgust at myself, fear, claustrophobia, feeling loved and wanted because he wanted me but so, so ashamed and dirty and untouchable. I had t today and was a snotty wreck. She couldn't reach me and I left feeling like I contaminated her with my poison and at the same time feeling so unwanted. I hope someone's listening...
__________________
"Remember to look up at the stars, not down at your feet. Try to make sense of what you see and wonder about what makes the universe exist. Be curious." Stephen Hawking |
 Anonymous32810, Anonymous33425, Ardmore, ArthurDent, BashfulBear, FourRedheads, harvest moon, kindachaotic, Lauru, pbutton, suzzie, tigersassy
|
|
#2
Dec 20, 2012, 01:32 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
You are not alone. I'm listening. I hope talking about it helps you.
 PM me if you'd like.
|
 Nelliecat
|
|
#3
Dec 20, 2012, 01:36 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
So I guess you didn't share the dream in session? I can understand how the dream left you in a state where it interfered with your session. I hope you can feel safer posting here.
__________________
Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........ I'm an ISFJ |
| Nelliecat
|
|
#4
Dec 20, 2012, 03:53 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
Quote:
__________________
"Remember to look up at the stars, not down at your feet. Try to make sense of what you see and wonder about what makes the universe exist. Be curious." Stephen Hawking |
|
#5
Dec 20, 2012, 03:57 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
Quote:
__________________
"Remember to look up at the stars, not down at your feet. Try to make sense of what you see and wonder about what makes the universe exist. Be curious." Stephen Hawking |
| FourRedheads, pbutton
|
|
#6
Dec 20, 2012, 06:38 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
Quote:
__________________
Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........ I'm an ISFJ |
| Nelliecat
|
|
#7
Dec 21, 2012, 11:49 AM
|
||||
|
||||
|
You know what the most disturbing aspect of that dream and those feelings was? It took me ages when I woke up to get my head around that it wasn't a normal thing to happen to a child. It just felt like it was the norm and all kids felt these things and experienced these things. When i was in t's room yesterday a group of little school children must have been on an outing, they all trooped past. I couldn't see them but i could hear them and they sounded so happy and light. It felt really significant that at that moment to notice this.
__________________
"Remember to look up at the stars, not down at your feet. Try to make sense of what you see and wonder about what makes the universe exist. Be curious." Stephen Hawking |
| pbutton
|
|
#8
Dec 21, 2012, 12:17 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
This would also be a great thing to share with T. It is part of processing.
__________________
Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........ I'm an ISFJ |
| Nelliecat
|
|
#9
Dec 21, 2012, 03:01 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
Quote:
I think I might print out this thread and take it with me next time.
__________________
"Remember to look up at the stars, not down at your feet. Try to make sense of what you see and wonder about what makes the universe exist. Be curious." Stephen Hawking |
| pbutton, Sannah, tigersassy
|
| Reply |
This is an old thread. You probably should not post your reply to it, as the original poster is unlikely to see it.|
|
My Support Forums is the online community that was originally begun as the Psych Central Forums in 2001. It now runs as an independent self-help support group community for mental health, personality, and psychological issues and is overseen by a group of dedicated, caring volunteers from around the world.
Linear Mode
