[XSleepingSiren21X]

I've been having a really hard time coping with how my parents have to been towards me.

Not to long ago, like a month back, I had to stay with my parents while my grandmother had company over. I was told by my parents they'd be happy for me to stay with them so I did.

By the end of the week, my parents were starting to act annoyed that I was around or rude and bullying me. At the point I had do go back, my mom admitted that I was 'too much' for her and that I was forced to leave because neither of my parents could stand me. She went on saying I'm too much to handle and I can't be taken care off by them because she couldn't do it. All I was doing the week I was staying over was doing some activities together with her like, painting our nails, going out shopping, doing something productive, or else I was to myself, she would tell me I needed to get out and so I did. Other days she'd be to herself or out doing something herself. Basically for the first few days she'd have no problem with me. By the next week, she completely acted like I was the biggest nuisance to her. She would complain that I wasn't doing things good enough or I was doing nothing that I should of been doing. She'd act like I was torturing her with my presence.

At the end of the week, I couldn't wait to get back to my grandmothers, I was feeling abandoned, unloved, bullied by my parents complaints, rude remarks, total disinterest in my normal lifestyle.

It only really hit me with how disapproving about me when my mom at the end of the day told me all the things she didn't like about me and how she acted like I was a good riddance when I left. Both my parents alike act like they're always two faced whenever they have me around for too long. They act ok with me and tell me how much they miss me or wish I was around at times, but being around for too long and they feel like I shouldn't exists.

I hate how they are like that and feel sad that I have to be such a burden to them. I always wonder if she really means it or if she just says it, just so I feel bad and will leave her alone. I get to the point I just don't want her anymore for a mother. Together as I grew up I hardly had a mother because she'd ignore me or treated me as much as she does now.

I grew up with her telling me to shut up or ignore me as I try to talk to her about my day or just to make simple conversation. Reaching in age both my parents showed no affection or interest, they'd always leave us alone and caused distress to me and my brother. I never had a really good connection or relationship with my mom, since growing up she was never motherly or remotely caring for us.

Now I have problems with both my parents and my mom specifically. I hate suffering with this everyday.

[BrokenNBeautiful]

This reminds me of when my aunt (person who raised me) sent me to see a friend of ours, who said she wanted me to come and visit her. then when I did, she didn't want me there. I really relate to that feeling. I feel it.

No one should be made to feel this way.

And especially if it's your own mother. ouch.

I am sorry.

You have something good to give to the world. The stuff she said to you is not who you are.

Thanks for writing your experience.

Carol

[Bluesday]

My parents were also emotionally non-supportive and I felt "bullied" at home. They were neglectful too. I was SEVERELY nearsighted as a child, but didn't get glasses until I was 11! I mean I flat out failed every eye exam in school every year before that. I can't believe I went over a decade not being able to see really! Just because people have the ability to procreate DOES NOT mean they will do what's best or will be good parents. Something is wrong with them and it is not your fault.

[psychfan1]

It sounds like your parents have major issues, this is not normal behavior at all. This hurtful behavior is about them: not caused by you or about you. Perhaps there is something going on with them internally, like feeling guilt that you do no longer live with them or directing totally unrelated feelings onto the nearest person - which was you at the time.

It may help to talk to your grandmother?