oh for gods sake...

why is it that when you start to feel ok everything goes down hill faster than the speed of light.

one of my do gooding friends or my hubby don't know which, has told my mother about me being on here a lot. i'm on here cosi need help ok?
now my mum may come on here, spying? checking what i'm talking about? great.

won't tell her name of site, maybe she won't find it
i'll keep my fingers crossed

sorry to vent

jinnt xxx

(((((Jinn)))))

OK. Do you know how to clear your computer of the history trails from coming here?

I hope your mother's intentions are for good, and not because she doesn't care. I think though, even your posting this will give her an idea as to who you are? You might want an Admin to delete this thread?

my mother feels very guilty NOW about what has happened.

still uses emotional abuse, if she read stuff she would try and probably take tablets or something. we have talked about events to a certain extent, but i don't really think she knows or believes half of what happened.

she's my mum, i love her and try to understand why she left her 8 year old daughter with a paedophile when she'd been warned. but this is the first timein my life i've started to let go, this is me time.

i don't need her coming on here and trying to make herself feel less guilty about what happened. everyone thinks she is the most lovely, caring person who would do anything for anyone

TOTAL CRAP. she is pretentious, unable to love unconditionally and will drink herself into oblivion every night rather than talk to me.

so lets just hope she doesn't find pc. cos i really dont want to leave.

i wish i had the guts to get her out of my life

jinny

worst case....she gets on here. Can you change your screen name? Would that help at all?

You are absolutely right. She has no business following you around trying to make herself look good or to soothe her guilt; it would be at your expense....she still doesn't get it--- that you and she are separate individuals.

(( jinny ))

thanks everyone
she knows my grandad used to call my jinnyann, but could be a coincidence i spose. maybe i'm just worrying too much.
idk.

she will be too drunk at night to get on here anyway
well, thanks for listening to me ranting. feel crap again now
when does it end

jin xx

sounds like a lot of stuff going on for you at the moment. am sorry you have to deal with it all hon. that would be a horrible horrible boundary violation for you mum to come on here and read your private stuff. it shouldnt be too difficult to change your screen name if that would make you feel safer? im sure a mod or admin could help with that.
i hope your husband lets this nagging drop and your mum forgets about it.
take care hon
((((((((((((jinny)))))))))))