[Lexicon78]

I have a bad anniversary coming up. It's the anniversary where my ex boyfriend sexually assaulted me and a little girl. It was terrible. That was 4 years ago and it still feels like it was yesterday.

I've already started going downhill. I'm just a mess. I still can't talk about it without feeling like I could've done something more than just unsuccessfully trying to get away. I hate that man! I hate what he made me do and what he made her do! It still feels like it just happened. I don't know how I'll ever get over this.

I mean I tried everything to get away...nothing worked...he was too strong! I shouldn't write all this...I don't want to upset anyone. I hate crying over this.

[Jill_B]

I do understand how you feel , But its been 4 yrs don't let this rule in your live anymore you must learn to take backyour power.Do you have a support group or family that can help you get that power back honey. Just believe it and it will be so. And the more you do the less the attack will be in your memory. What can you lose? Go Ahead take it back tell yourself you are a strong powerful beautiful woman. Go For and GOD BLESS

Jill__B

[Butterfly_Faerie]

I never get anniversary's for my abuse, rape etc... maybe being 16 and not realizing that it was wrong .. I don't know. Maybe i'm lucky?

Hang in there, I know it will be tough, but you are strong and you are here now.. Take care honey.

<font color=red>~Sundance~</font color=red>

<font color=blue>"Never react emotionally to criticism. Analyze yourself to determine whether it is justified. If it is, correct yourself. Otherwise, go on about your business."</font color=blue>

<font color=black>Norman Vincent Peale</font color=black>