[Notoriousglo]

I thought I could tell my siblings about my feelings towards my mother. The hatred is strong and I say I wish she was dead a lot. In a manic bipolar phase, I got psychotic & told my siblings crazy things.

They told my mom. She sent me an email saying not to stop by the house anymore. I feel betrayed.

I just want to forget myself.

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[CopperStar]

The truth-teller in an abusive family situation will almost always be targeted, usually as the scapegoat child. Which it sounds like you are in this situation.

Please try to feel proud of your courage to tell the truth, even when it means finally facing the facts about your own family. It is extremely difficult and painful and takes a ton of guts and strength to be the truth-teller.

My younger brother didn't see the light for years until our mother finally started to turn on him, too.

[cluelessgal]

CopperStar is right. Everyone knows the truth deep down. But when someone speaks it, everyone hates it, except the speaker, because now they have to do something about it.

This is classic elephant in the room.

When I told my brother that dad's constant name calling affected my self-esteem....he actually god mad at me!!

It's very hurtful that your mother sent you an email like that. A concerned person would call and discuss and wonder why you feel that way. She hurt you and she knows it, and she doesn't want to address it. Unless your mom goes to therapy herself and work on her issues, things are probably not going to change much. Maybe she has issues because of her parents behavior towards her.

I think you should see this as a silver lining of the dark cloud and take your time to heal, without someone questioning your emotions and feelings.

[marmaduke]

Agree with CopperStar. They dont like truth, they only 'like' people who play their toxic games.

[Notoriousglo]

Thank you everyone!

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