how I feel today

Today, I feel lonely. Kind of a common thing for me. But I'm also a bit angry, because I really believe I am lonely because of how long I have isolated. I isolate because that has felt safer, ever since the abuse. It's their fault I ended up here. I didn't ask for this. I feel like my natural self would be more open to people and relationships. They changed who I was with their abuse. So now I'm sad and lonely.

I know I have a choice now to move out of this shell and live a fuller life. But I'd be lying if said it was easy. It's not.

Thanks for listening,

mtd

((((((((((((mtd))))))))))) Safe and gentle hugs to you!

You are right, it won't be easy to get out of your comfort zone and into the world. But no one said you have to do it all at once. You can take baby steps along the way.

Maybe you can write down what you want to accomplish. After you have your list, decide what you think would be the easiest one to start with and make a plan on how you will go about tackling that goal. Many times when we can visualize how we will do something that scares us, there is comfort in that plan so it's not as stressful. Once you have succeeded at one goal, then go to work on the next one. Every time you work on these goals you will become more and more comfortable with yourself and your abilities.

I'll send you thoughts of strength as you work through your issues. Wishing you all the best!

Hugssss
J

(((((((((((((((MTD)))))))))))))))))))))

gentle safe hugs to you my friend. like sabby said it will take time. be kind to yourself and always remember nothing was your fault.
if ever you want to pm me feel free, i was abused too. take care

love jinnyann xoxoxoxox

just to help you along your way sweetie, jin xoxoxoxo

nice huggy hugs from me
u r safe here and u aint alone we are your friends!!!!
hahaha i luv these...
take care
self

(((mtd)))

I feel alone very often too. And no, it is not easy to move out of the shell because we have no experience doing that. Our experience has been to retreat so that is what feels natural.

Keep trying and keep posting. Becaue in your core, there is a social "you" that was not damaged.

Peace.