[InACorner]

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Two days ago i heard a voice in my head...a girl's...and she all of sudden said get it out get it out get it out....then that night i had a dream that my grandfather hurt me s*xually....and tonight i had a dream my mom hurt me s*xually...i dont understand????????? Why is this happening to me??????? Why am i having this horrible nightmares????im soooo confused....its like a tidel wave hitting me in the face and throwing me down and then another tidel wave hitting me....one right after the other.
thanks for listening....sorry i just need to rant cuz im scared....

[Sherryanne]

Hi,

Ten years after my abuse, and a year into therapy. I had my first flashback. before thahad been asked have I ever been abused and i defensively said no. Since then I have one memory after the next. My mind came out of its silence, i dont know why. Listen to urself as hard as it will be to believe u. Talk to someone to help figure out if all this is real. I dont wanna jump to conclusions saying that is is. But for me, its was. The person, a close relative, wont admit to it. But the memories are so r eal. I know they dont lie.

Hang in there......it took me a week to actually exhale

[sabby]

(((((((((((((((((innysweety)))))))))))))))))))))))

It must be very scary for you right now. I'm so sorry you are going through this hon. I wish I had answers for you and ways to help you. All I can do is give you my friendship, my shoulder to lean on, my hand to hold and lots of lots of love and compassion.

Anytime you want to talk, you know where I am. I'm always here to listen hon.

*Gentle Hugs*
Jean

[SheriP]

I know this is tough, I still go through it every now and then. My tdoc told me that my brain won't let me remember anything I can't handle.

Yesterday I sat down to work on a semi-autobiography that I've been writing for about 5 years. I've never been able to write certain parts, but it just came pouring out. It was awful while I was writing, but I couldn't stop. It felt empowering when I finished.

I hope you have a good therapist/person you can talk to to help you through this.

~S

[InACorner]

(((Everyone)))

this is really hard...i dont understand at all what any of this means...if it means anything...maybe my mind is just being cruel to me

[Sherryanne]

((((((((((((Corner)))))))))

i really feel for you. I wish I could say itll get better and I wish I could say itll all go away. Chances is it wont. Its real tought and all I can offer is my complete empathy and support. Im doin better now, but everynow and then, i get a new nightmare and the trauma starts all over again. It took me along time to accept that my mind wasnt playing tricks on me.

the unfortunate truth is that if this is affecting you so much it may most likely be true and that sucks majorly. Do you have a T? Mine really came thru for me in the beginning helpin me validate my thoughts and believe myself. Once you can validate then the healing begins.

If you need someone to talk to, Im here.jus pm. Ill respond

(((((((((inny my twing)))))))))

im so sorry im such a bad friend
i should listen more
i should have been there more

inny im sorry

please forgive me
i promise i will do better

im sorry my twing
the theme song still plays

please be ok inny

[MissCharlotte]

(((Inny)))



Be good to yourself.

We are here for you.

[InACorner]

((((((everyone)))))))))))

bronee...your wonderful..weve had our talk and you know you help me out alot...so no more thinking down on yourself k?

about to go to sleep..thanks for replying it means alot to me..im afraid to go to sleep to see what will come but we all need sleep.....i have no T ..my first and last T lasted for two days and then he dropped me...and i have no one else yet.....other things are more important at the moment..i can wait...i just can handle it..i just need to tell myself none of this is real..it cant be.....its probably all just my imagination gone cookoo....thanks for your support everyone...i need it

[littlehands]

I am so sorry we have had to be subjected to others pain...others own war in their minds...I do believe we survived for a reason..through us others will learn that we all are in a war, it just some come out alive and others don't even know they are dead...only the strong survive, so when you think you are weak, that is when you are the strongest...pride comes before the fall... great to hear you speak of things that need hearing...so others can know how to listen, without always saying anything.