Newest flashback

Trigger warning!

Last night I was mostly conscious at two in the morning when I got hit by another flashback. This was the most violent and emotional one yet. Being ripped out of bed, pinned down, and raped. My body moving with his involuntarily..... Feeling him inside me moving..... Crying. Being yelled at that if I didn't stop crying he would give me something to cry about. Watching him leave the room and me curling into the fetal position sobbing, until I fell back to sleep.

My therapist doesn't feel qualified to handle these memories and I don't have anyone else I can talk to. Supposed to start emdr in two weeks but how am I supposed to cope until then?

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I hope she doesn't mind me posting this, but CopperStar replied to a thread a posted before with this when I was having a bad night of flashbacks and memories and it helped:

Hang in there. If your brain is releasing these memories to you, it means that the wisdom of your psyche has determined that you are now strong enough to process these things. Your very own brain has faith in you and in how far you have come. Trust your mind to take care if you and be there for you. It protected you in the past when you were too vulnerable to process such things, and it has faith in you now.

That sounds awful

I had a new flashback last night too I don't know how to help, but I wanted to let you know you're not alone. Im glad Miktis reposted CopperStar's words - I find them really comforting.

You can contact RAINN; I have heard wonderful things about them....Hugs

Thinking of you czarina

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Hi

I've had numerous flashbacks. You just have to let them come to the surface and not suppress them. If you suppress them its more painful to endure.

PH