Just need to share.. I'm angry I was traumatized as a kid. I don't get why it had to happen that I had to be scared to death of my dad.. I'm angry no one listened to me or believed me. I'm angry I was so alone!

So far, I haven't known who to blame.. My parents, other people who weren't there for me, God?? But now I realise it's not about blaming anyone.. I just need to get the emotional energy out, I just need to share how I feel..

Thanks for reading

[nicoleflynn]

Anger is a good thing, it tells you that something needs to be addressed. I was also traumatized as a child. Sadly, it is all too common. The blame belongs to those who abuse. You might want to write a letter of "restorative justice"--restorative justice says...this is what you did, this is how it made me feel. I believe it is empowering

Thank you for understanding, nicoleflynn, and for the advice! I'll try that

[PumpkinPieHead]

Your post resonates with me as I lived in fear also. I use positive affirmations many times a day when I start feeling down. God bless

[Open Eyes]

Healing includes mourning whatever one realizes was lost to them, especially when taking the time to think about one's childhood that had neglect and abuse in it from a parent. Anger, is actually part of mourning. It's ok to be angry, to vent that anger too. However, keep in mind that having a desire for a parent that neglected or abused you in someway admit fault if you point out how they failed you may end up facing a parent that is still not be willing to admit "fault". Unfortunately, that is something that is common and that can lead to someone feeling hurt all over again.

Often what happened in families is that children were told to "fear the father", the father was often the one who would punish if the child did something wrong. That was something that was unhealthy to have children feel about the father, and the damage from that most definitely was handed down from one generation to the next.

It is more important that you see the bigger picture often the problem with a father that a child ends up fearing and can be aggressive is a father that was raised to believe that was part of what he was supposed to be in the family.