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To be called a liar... by your Mom... to live the nightmare.. of the "pretend" world... the "world" that your Mom lives in... the one where she is the "perfect" mother.. and you are the child that is too senistive.. too embrassing for her...

My world... one of confusion... my hand closed in the car door.. my mom apoligizing to our hostess.. because I am silently crying.. because my little hand is brusied.. and cut.. and mashed..
The hostess.. taking me upstairs.. putting my little hand under the cold water.. my body shaking with pain.. silently crying.. knowing that my Mom.. is so very mad at me.. for making a "scene".

My Mom.. telling me.. "you are wrong, that is your Dad loving you... there isn't anything wrong... you are a liar"...
My world... one that hurts.. from the way my Dad shows his love.. it hurts.. love hurts..
He loves me... but I am not to tell anyone.. anyone .. it is a secret..

My world.. trying to keep all these secrets.. and I am not good at that... my sister is good at it.. I am not... things always slip out.. I worry.. worry.. worry.. worry.. how to keep the secrets...

An embrassment...that is me....

[50guy]

Sexual abuse is horrible to a child, especially when it comes from a parent.

I can't imagine the horror. My abuser was an older cousin, that was tramatic enough.

((((((((((((freewill))))))))), I'm so sorry.

((((((((((((((freewill)))))))))))))))

my poor poor sweet friend, I love you dearly, this could be me you are describing, only it wasn't my dad, my mothers lover, she was the same with me, I was an embarassement, something in the way of her life, I was told the same, let us hold hands and get through this, let us realise we are worthy, loveable people who have been treated like animals, worse than animals. We can console each other, I'm here for you always, Always my friend.... Your post is very brave, you are getting out all the bad and I applaud your courage, sending gentle hugs if that's ok, please please know I hear your pain, understand it and hurt with you.

Love you, Jinnyann xxxxxxx

[recluse1]

((((((((freewill)))))))))) your story has broken my heart, broken my heart for you. i couldn't even begin to imagine how that must have been for you as a child. how confusing, crushed, and afraid you must have been.

i send you my love and friendship and hope that if you ever need to, you can talk to me about anything. you may not have had anyone in your past that was trutworthy and safe. but you do now. i am here for you always my friend. i love you and so do so many others here. we embrace you in a protective circle of love and light.

in my prayers.
recluse1

[darkpurplesecrets]

(((((freewill)))))

My heart goes out to you. I feel your pain with every letter you type, with every word that comes out. I am sitting right next to you listening and holding you close. I understand what you say. You are not alone. My heart is broken for you. Being a child, it was not your fault, ever. I send you my love and my support. Feel free to pm me anytime you want to. I am always here for you. I understand. I am not going anywhere, I sit beside you always in your mind. Hold on tight dear and do not let go. I love you dear, my friend.

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