[Rive1976]

There was another post where they said they had symptoms of sexual abuse andsomeone wrote. They wouldnt assume they were if they didnt know and you wouldjust know. Where else could the symptoms possibly come from then?

[RubyRae]

I don't know who's post you're referring to but I have said I believe if a person has been sexually abused they just know, there's just a knowing,the soul knows, or something like that.

I personally don't think it's wise for anyone to read a list of symptoms and jump to conclusions theyve been sexually abused. To me that's no different than self diagnosing a mental illness because some of the symptoms fit. They could be way off on what they believe is wrong with them since so many symptoms can be similar for each illness. The same goes for SA symptoms, someone could presume that's what it has to be when in fact they just had a UTI in childhood or a hundred different scenarios.

[Rive1976]

Yes but Im going to use me for example. I see sex as an animalistic act. I feel using each others body for sexual pleasure as gross. So where does that come from?

[Rive1976]

Also people have forgotten memories until they are like 40 or 50 years old.

[TrailRunner14]

That was me, I believe.

I say this with all respect.

I’ve been working with a Christian counselor for the past 6 years. It’s been a work in progress for me to get to this point of my heart wanting validation.

There is a checklist that I mentioned, but it really hasn’t been mentioned or realized, for me, until really just recently.

There are memories that shut off into darkness with me wondering what the ending is. There is a part of me that strongly believes what I don’t want to see.

There is a feeling there of “knowing” that I don’t want to acknowledge as truth.

I want to know but I don’t want to see it.

I want to validate it without looking at it.

Just wanted to say, “That was me.”

[RubyRae]

Originally Posted by Dnester

Yes but Im going to use me for example. I see sex as an animalistic act. I feel using each others body for sexual pleasure as gross. So where does that come from?

I don't know where that came from for you. It could possibly be from sa or it could be something as simple as walking in on people having sex as a child and it grossed you out.

IDK but I think it's all something that would be worth working on in therapy.

Originally Posted by Dnester

Also people have forgotten memories until they are like 40 or 50 years old.

Yes, that's true. But I still personally believe there's just a knowing somehow even if a person doesn't renember.

Do you feel or believe you were sexually abused?I don't think people wonder or question or even search for symptoms for no reason.

It's one thing if someone randomly reads symptoms and then think hey I have those symptoms, maybe I was sexually abused. It's something entirely different if they are reading about sa, reading about symptoms and questioning it.

Did you wonder before ever reading a symptom list?I think you should go with whatever your gut tells you. And if there are forgotten memories, they will surface when a person is ready to handle it.

I am not saying you were and Im not saying you weren't. Im just saying a checklist of symptoms doesn't make it fact.

[Rive1976]

I dont know if I was abused or not. I just know I was sexualized thats all and I dont know what sexualized me.

[RubyRae]

What do you feel in your heart/soul Dnester?That's what's important I think.

[Rive1976]

I dont know I just know what i did when I was little butsome say its normal so idk.

[Rive1976]

I have always thought I was abused and my therapist prior to this one said that I had been at the very least exposed to something but idk.

[RubyRae]

Originally Posted by Dnester

I have always thought I was abused .

That really stands out to me.

Maybe explore that in therapy, the things that have made you think that and go from there.

[Rive1976]

Yeah I have only had three sessions with this new one so we will see. My old therapist was awesome but she passed.