The Genie Can't Go Back in the Bottle

I'm new here and this is my first post. I met with my therapist yesterday to discuss this empty feeling I have always had inside of me. I recently started taking meds and the doctor who prescribed them told me that I suffer from moderate to sever depression and PTSD due to events in my childhood. The PTSD statement stuck with me and I spoke yesterday about it. As began to speak about the stuff that my older, by 9 years, brother did to me. The torture, physical abuse, mental abuse and fear that he inflicted on me. My therapist feels I may be suffering from Complex PTSD which I had never hear of. I read a few papers online and holy **** it is me to a T. What is happening is all of the stuff that I have blocked out for most of my life is all bubbling to the surface. I'm reliving all of it at one and I don't know what to do. The lid is off the bottle and the genie is out and she ain't going back inside. I'm wondering around in a daze and I have no one to talk to about this. I'm also a recovering alcoholic and I have a circle of people who can relate to that, but non of them have gone through this (I've shared most of what I remember with them). My dad was rage filled and took it out on me as a child. My mom is an over bearing depressed nut who used to body shame me. Who can I turn to? What do I do? I feel so alone.

Hello Jonah: Since this is your first post here on PC... welcome to PsychCentral! In addition to the survivors of abuse forum there are forums, here on PC, related to the topics of cPTSD, depression & addictions. Here are links to these forums:

https://forums.psychcentral.com/complex-ptsd/

https://forums.psychcentral.com/depression/

https://forums.psychcentral.com/addictions/

And then here are links to 9 articles from PsychCentral's archives. The first is on cPTSD & narcissistic abuse. Then there are 4 on the subject of things you can do to manage depression. The remaining 4 offer suggestions for what to do when you feel lost:

Healing from Complex-PTSD in the Aftermath of Narcissistic Abuse | The Savvy Shrink

10 Things I Do Every Day to Beat Depression

https://psychcentral.com/blog/6-step...ng-depression/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/7-ways...al-depression/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/7-more...dium=popular17

https://psychcentral.com/blog/when-you-feel-lost/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/feelin...g-opportunity/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/so-you...-never-expect/

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/weigh...from-yourself/

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.

Hi Jonah.
Genies suck.
I am glad you have a therapist. People need support to heal from complex childhood trauma.
It can be helpful to post on the forums, I hope you stick around.