Sod off you piece of **** What do you want to say to your abuser

You are SO ****ing predictable

You keep on hurting me and you just don't give a damn do you

so you couldn't deal with me possibly leaving, so you had to line up the next woman before we ended. You needed a cushion to fall back on if we broke up. And I got hurt as a result. Shame on you. And pitiful. So sad and pathetic that you cannot exist on your own two feet for one second and just had to line up the next victim while still with me, and while claiming to me how much you love me. Shame on you... oh yeah, but you have NO conscience. And zero character. This is in line with the character I see in you, which is very flawed. You lied numerous times and you even stole from Home Depot, AND from me for that matter. ZERO character. I deserve SO much better.

You send me sweet romantic notes, and romantic songs, and you tell me to remember the way we were when we first met and fell in love.

And I do remember that... but...

I also remember the many times you spat in my face, and held a knife at my throat, and when you ripped my daughter’s bra off her, and when you threw us out of our home, and when you smashed holes in our furniture, and when you drained our joint bank account, and how you tried to rip apart every relationship.

And then I shake my head and go back to whatever I am doing in life that does not involve you.

People can change and I have faith that you did and I wish you the best in your new life. I apologize for hurting you with my drinking. I'm sorry it couldn't work out between us.

I am NOT INTERESTED IN YOU!

STILL here huh?

how could you laugh at me on the phone because I asked a question when you contacted me . I feel so hurt even though I stood up for myself and share my knowledge to help other.

No No No NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO,I DONT LIKE YOU ANYMORE AND i CERTAINLY DONT LOVE YOU!

I'm sick of your lies. I'm sick of your games. I'm sick of you downplaying your abuse and your affair to me. I hate you. I really freaking HATE you. If you were in front of me right now, I would kICK YOU SO HARD in the nuts and where it counts. I need for this divorce to be done already. And now you refuse to reply to me? What are you, stalling? And you say this can be fixed? NO. It cannot be fixed - not ever. You have caused me SO MUCH HARM. ENOUGH. I've had it with you. You refuse to take any responsibility for your actions which only just infuriates me that much more. You have caused SO much destruction in my life, and you've caused me an enormous amount of pain. You should pay for this. I hope karma comes and bites you HARD. I wish death upon you.

Lots of reasons why I should hate you, you don't deserve even that ,hate is giving you attention ,you're not worth it, you're as I said before a nasty, malicious prick,
be gone and never think you are worthy of attention from me ever again.

Why can't you leave me alone? Why can't you follow your own advice before giving the advice out that used to bully me with. It is not my fault that you hate yourself So much that you feel the need to hurt other.

Why couldn't you leave well enough alone and mind your own business? Why did you have to start a flame war? What did I do to you that made you so hostile from the beginning? You think if you tell enough lies that people will believe you? You don't realize how silly you look, trying to convince people of what a predator I am.
In the end, it will blow up in your face. I have watched as you scream at my husband, as if he would get involved, but I asked him not to. There comes a time when enough is enough. I have been beaten many many times, I was sexually molested by my stepfather, and bullied by my brothers and classmates. I have always felt like I have a target on my back. No more. You want a flame war? You got it. I have children older than you and you think I'm supposed to just take your bs? No. I'm done with bullies and monsters.

Stay away be gone,you no longer matter to me.

I do not know why I sent you an email three years later AND after I got married. Why did I have to say "I forgive you"? Couldn't I just forgive you in my heart? NO. - I sent that stupid email while drunk on wine. I had prayed for healing from ALL the abuse I suffered, you included. You harmed me perhaps the most out of everyone. So WHY did I have to do that? Kicking myself. I've only just fed your already huge ego because you're a narc. WHY oh WHY? SO STUPID.

Twas the night before Christmas, when all through the house
Not a creature was stirring, not even a mouse;
The family you shredded have all stayed away
From the chaos and anger you created each day
The children would hide all alone in their beds
Afraid of what thoughts would come into your head
And mamma with her scowl and I with my fear
Had scrambled their brains and they couldn’t think clear
Anyway we’re Jewish so for us no Santa Claus
But reindeer who visited looked well armed with claws
“On, Dasher! On Chaos, On Fighting! Now Vixen!
On, Violence! on, Hate! on, Donner und Blitzen!”
So away flew I with one precious daughter
Sadly the other child had to live with you, mother
But my household now is much calmer and quiet
And our life no longer feels like a horrible riot

And a message, dear reader, who seeks solace and light,
"Merry Christmas to all, and to all, a good night"

It is with heavy heart once I had to leave you and I knew not what malicious malarkey you had stirred and directed at me.......but now I know and my message to you is........hit the road Jack and don't come back no more,no more,hit the road Jack and don't come back no more.......these boots are made for walking and that's just what they'll do,one of these days these boots are gonna walk all over YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I forgive you for being the broken person that you are. I forgive you for all your cruelty and abuse because you do not know any better. I forgive you for hurting me and I forgive you for all your wrongdoings and failures. I let you go now because I must move on in my life - and eventually I will find someone who will treat me far better. I wish you well and I wish healing for you. Goodbye.

I am my abuser and I want to tell myself to stop the self hate,stop beating myself up for being morbidly obese,I want to love myself more and enough to care about my health and eat healthy and stop putting bad foods into my mouth,choose salads and fruit and vegetables,lean meat and low calorie foods and exercise when you can and don't beat yourself up and self hate if you can't manage to exercise every day as much as you'd like to.

I hate you. I absolutely cannot stand you. You thoroughly appall me and disgust me. You are a most despicable human being. Now goodbye.

I actually said that to him today.

**** you Go AWAY

to my mental health team:

I would like to say it is a new year, and I kindly request that you leave my dead brother out of further conversations with me. he died 13 years ago. the end. you can't accept that, find someone who can and let me have a diffrent team.

he's not even my brother, he's my step brother. sooo. have fun with that.

You say you're willing. to do anything to salvage our relationship including individual therapy, yet you to date refuse to acknowledge your abuse. Therapy will never work on you.

I wish you had cared about me in the way that means most to me.