Hello my name is Katie, I am new.

Katiesue4 · 09:38 PM

Hello everyone,
My name is Katie. I am here to seek a support system out side of my family, mainly my husband. He has been my biggest support system. I am going to share some things about myself. I am a mom of 4 kids and have been married for 14 yrs. I suffer from PTSD, BPD and depression. I am going to be very open about the things I have been through to given you an idea of my trauma. I will apologize now from me sharing my trauma if I happen to trigger anyone while sharing. That is not my intention.

I grow up with my father being a alcoholic and abuse of to my mother. I have witness a lot of

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physical abuse including my father at one point stabbing my mother in the shoulder. When I was 7 yrs old I came home with 3 of my sisters (I have 6 sisters). We found our mother dead on the bathroom floor. That sight gave me nightmares for over two years. At the age of 9, myself and two of my youngest sisters were taken away from my father because he also attempted to commit suicide. That lasted about 3 months. Then by the age of 12 we got taking away from my dad again. My self, my twin and the 3rd youngest lived with my second oldest sister. During that time I witness more abuse with my sister and her husband. I also at the age of 12 to 14 was sexual molested by 4 different perpetrator. One was attempted rape at 13.

By time I was 16 I moved into my first husbands house. I got pregnant and married by the age of 17. My first husband was a abuse of alcoholic. By time I was pregnant for my second daughter at 18 I had filled for a divorce. By 19 I found my husband I am with today. One last thing I will share is in 2015 I had found out

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my own father molested my 3 daughters and I put him in prison.

Once I did that it tour my family apart. 5 of my sisters took my dads side and during the court process it was just my husband by myside.

I have emotional roller coasters a lot and its not healthy for myself or my family. I have been in therapy for 7 years and now seeking more help. Due to the emotional roller coasters not getting any better.

Raindropvampire · May 05, 2020, 10:04 PM

Welcome to Psych Central

Katiesue4 · May 06, 2020, 06:23 AM

Thank you for your support!

Raindropvampire · May 07, 2020, 12:35 AM

Anytime. Sorry I didn't write more but sometimes I feel quite shy on here

You have been through a lot and it sounds like you're trying your best. You have and are in therapy and you are reaching out here for support. It also sounds like you are self aware of your moods and how they affect those around you.

Have you found the BPD or PTSD forums yet? Sometimes it really helps to talk with those going through similar things

Katiesue4 · May 07, 2020, 08:10 AM

Thank you again.... I understand being shy. I use to not talk about my emotional disabilities to anyone out of shame and fear of judgment. But I don't want to live like that any more.

The problem for me is I am aware I have mood swings but once I get stuck in them its hard for me to get out. I can feel the spiral coming but I feel by time I feel that I am out of control already with my thoughts and what is truly reality. I have been in therapy for 7 yrs. Now what I am doing is seeking out DBT-CBT Treatments with a Psychologist.

I have not found a BPD or PTSD forum yet. I find it a little had to navigate this forum/website. Do you know of any? I would appreciate the help. You are right, it would be helpful to talk with people that go though the same thing. I was also hoping to find a support system/forum for my husband.

NMRK · May 07, 2020, 05:29 PM

Hello Katie, you're so brave and strong, it's rare. Not many people survive what you've been through. You are a true warrior. Sorry for sounding a bit newage but I feel like sending you beams of lovelight and healing energy. xx

Buffy01 · May 07, 2020, 09:39 PM

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Originally Posted by Katiesue4

Hello everyone,
My name is Katie. I am here to seek a support system out side of my family, mainly my husband. He has been my biggest support system. I am going to share some things about myself. I am a mom of 4 kids and have been married for 14 yrs. I suffer from PTSD, BPD and depression. I am going to be very open about the things I have been through to given you an idea of my trauma. I will apologize now from me sharing my trauma if I happen to trigger anyone while sharing. That is not my intention.

I grow up with my father being a alcoholic and abuse of to my mother. I have witness a lot of

Possible trigger:

physical abuse including my father at one point stabbing my mother in the shoulder. When I was 7 yrs old I came home with 3 of my sisters (I have 6 sisters). We found our mother dead on the bathroom floor. That sight gave me nightmares for over two years. At the age of 9, myself and two of my youngest sisters were taken away from my father because he also attempted to commit suicide. That lasted about 3 months. Then by the age of 12 we got taking away from my dad again. My self, my twin and the 3rd youngest lived with my second oldest sister. During that time I witness more abuse with my sister and her husband. I also at the age of 12 to 14 was sexual molested by 4 different perpetrator. One was attempted rape at 13.

By time I was 16 I moved into my first husbands house. I got pregnant and married by the age of 17. My first husband was a abuse of alcoholic. By time I was pregnant for my second daughter at 18 I had filled for a divorce. By 19 I found my husband I am with today. One last thing I will share is in 2015 I had found out

Possible trigger:

my own father molested my 3 daughters and I put him in prison.

Once I did that it tour my family apart. 5 of my sisters took my dads side and during the court process it was just my husband by myside.

I have emotional roller coasters a lot and its not healthy for myself or my family. I have been in therapy for 7 years and now seeking more help. Due to the emotional roller coasters not getting any better.

Welcome to PC!.I'm sorry for everything that you had experienced.

Katiesue4 · May 08, 2020, 11:34 AM

Thank you. Hearing that means a lot.

guy1111 · May 08, 2020, 12:46 PM

Welcome! You are in the right place. I hope you find peace and healing. You are very strong!

Raindropvampire · May 11, 2020, 12:50 AM

In case you haven't found them yet on here. This is the BPD forum here https://psychcentralforums.com/borde...lity-disorder/

And here is the PTSD forum https://psychcentralforums.com/post-traumatic-stress/

Sorry it took me a minute to get back with you. I was off work for three days and I only come here at work. There are too many prying eyes around my house

Bill3 · May 16, 2020, 06:33 PM

I'm so sorry that those many horrible, painful things happened to you.

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