Home Menu

Menu


Reply
Thread Tools Display Modes
  #1  
Old May 29, 2008, 08:19 PM
jasie's Avatar
jasie jasie is offline
Member
 
Member Since: Aug 2007
Posts: 49
Ive had about ten visits with a counselor I guess its for PTSD The thing is ive probably had this all my life except I just didnt know what it was. The last abuser brought me to such a dark place and secondary abuse by law enforcement left me with this mantra going off in my head That its not safe to trust anyone. This is really affecting my ability to trust a counselor I am trying to stop but the anxiety i get just from entering the T's office is almost unbearable. I am afraid I'm not a very good "client" and I am wasting appts if I cant talk about things. Does anyone have any advice on how to get help from a therapist? I want to heal from the past but sometimes I feel so hopeless I hear people talk about how much their counseling has helped them heal and I really want that to happen. I am not having too much luck with the emdr therapy but Ive only tried it a few times. I think the anxiety is preventing me from getting better and I feel so discouraged that I am thinking if trying counseling is even worth my time.
__________________
Keep me away from the wisdom which does not cry, the philosophy which does not laugh and the greatness which does not bow before children. ...

advertisement
  #2  
Old May 30, 2008, 12:25 AM
Kiya's Avatar
Kiya Kiya is offline
Legendary
 
Member Since: Oct 2007
Location: Out of my mind...back in 5 min.
Posts: 10,370
((((((((jasie)))))))))
it is worth it. it does take time. hang in there!
__________________
Credits: ChildlikeEmpress and Pseudonym for this lovely image.



sick of myselfalt="Universal Life Church | ULC" border="0">
  #3  
Old Jun 01, 2008, 09:25 PM
mtd mtd is offline
Member
 
Member Since: Jul 2003
Location: Las vegas
Posts: 303
jasie,

I can relate in so many ways. Your post reminds me of a sign on the wall of a hospital where I went to deal with my own PTSD from abuse. The sign was not for me or the other patients, it was for the therapists. In part, it said, "It is a privilege that they let you in -- there's no reason they should trust you -- none." The truth is, we don't trust because we learned not to trust even our own judgment, and that does get in the way of accepting help. For me, I had to overcome that by setting my own terms in therapy. I had to know my own boundaries, and insist on them, like I can't be in a room with the door closed if there's no windows -- too much like the place I was hurt. I had to define what we were going to work on, not let the therapist direct the agenda, at least in the beginning. Sometimes I just needed the therapist to listen to what I had to say, without saying anything back or challenging me with something I didn't feel ready for.

And then there's this point, the way the sign on the wall ended. It said, "That they are in your office is in itself a supreme act of valor." Truly. You deserve credit today, despite your struggles and frustrations, for having the courage to seek help. You're worth it. It's the first step. Keep reaching out for help, just on your terms until you're ready for someone else to be more of a guide.

You deserve to heal.

mtd
  #4  
Old Jun 01, 2008, 11:06 PM
Justgiving's Avatar
Justgiving Justgiving is offline
Grand Poohbah
 
Member Since: Apr 2008
Posts: 1,822
It's not easy to trust who ever it may be.

Don't lose hope and don't be sick with yourself. You are trying and that's the best thing you can do..

sick of myself
  #5  
Old Jun 05, 2008, 01:16 AM
mountainstream's Avatar
mountainstream mountainstream is offline
Magnate
 
Member Since: Apr 2008
Location: N/A
Posts: 2,153
((((((((jasie)))))))
sick of myself
Reply
Views: 317

attentionThis is an old thread. You probably should not post your reply to it, as the original poster is unlikely to see it.



Similar Threads
Thread Thread Starter Forum Replies Last Post
Cant ever not be sick emoangel Health Forum 1 Oct 29, 2006 07:16 PM
sick of getting sick also venting tita Chronic Pain Support 2 Oct 28, 2006 01:26 PM
no words except for sick of it all so very very sick Fuzzybear Dissociative Disorders 24 Sep 11, 2006 03:22 PM
Sick Dissociative Disorders 11 Apr 07, 2006 06:56 PM


All times are GMT -5. The time now is 04:41 AM.
Powered by vBulletin® — Copyright © 2000 - 2025, Jelsoft Enterprises Ltd.




 

My Support Forums

My Support Forums is the online community that was originally begun as the Psych Central Forums in 2001. It now runs as an independent self-help support group community for mental health, personality, and psychological issues and is overseen by a group of dedicated, caring volunteers from around the world.

 

Helplines and Lifelines

The material on this site is for informational purposes only, and is not a substitute for medical advice, diagnosis or treatment provided by a qualified health care provider.

Always consult your doctor or mental health professional before trying anything you read here.