want treatment for "shock".... if a person can get treatment from "shock" from an accident.... then.. why can't I go to the regular hospital.. and get treatment for "shock"... now...

confused.. alone.. disoriented.. sick... freezing... teeth chattering

shouldn't someone take care of me???? when I cannot?????

why... is it that everyone's life goes on.. and mine does not???

m ex-husband's... my son's.. my son's g/f.. my son's g/fs mom.... so.. why am I "shockie"..and they are OK...

and.. why do they not care??? I didn't ask for them to descend on my life.. Friday... they "just did"....

don't I get to... have a "say"... don't they care that they "upset" me so badly..

don't they care that my throat glands.. are golf ball size..

don't they love me...

I cared for each of these people.. I celebrated birthday's.. Christmas... special occasions for them.. and they did nothing for me...

so.. what does that mean???

it means.. I am worthless.. and.. it is my fault.. says my T because I didn't "inisit" on being worthwhile..

so.. I am worthless.. and I am at fault...

want to go to hospital.. and have them put warm blankets.. and give me meds.. to take the pain away... and heat.. on my glands.....it hurts...

[reddevil]

You should go to the doctor if you are in pain.

You are allowed to, and you are not worthless.

((((( freewill ))))) you matter so much.

[iamtwilight]

(((freewill))) i agree with reddevil & griffe.

sometimes people don't know that they are coming off that way. i'm not sure if this really is the case.. but i think you do deserve love.. nurturing.. whatever you need.. and are worthy of it.

[Kiya]

me thinks your glands should not be golf-ball sized. can you go get that checked out???
(((((((((((((((worthy Free)))))))))))))))

[bchlyn]

(((((free))))) how do you feel today?... did you get it checked?... i am sorry they treated you that way... you mean so much to me... please take gentle care...lyn

[multipixie9]

freewill, im so sorry you are suffering and alone. i do care and i wish that cyberspace was safely tangible where my concern could reach you. tonight i feel terribly alone too and abandoned. if i could i would drive you to the doctor and i would bring chicken soup and a cuddle blanket. then maybe you could put on a favorite happy movie and zone out on the couch while you begin to feel a little better.

sometimes we women are experienced in giving nurture, but not in asking for nurture. that can hurt so much when the pain inside is bad.

it won't always hurt this bad. hold on and cling to any hope you can find like your friends on PC. this is one of the good places "good port in a storm".

leslie

you may feel worthless, feelings are not truth. you are valuable for your self, not for your service, for your self. choose to believe the truth, not the feelings. if i believed my feelings tonight i'd be in danger. but feelings change. truth stays. i value you. your friend values you.

[bchlyn]

(((((free))))) how are you today?... please let me know...ok?...lyn