WHO in the world am I???!

u are definitely not a coward. believe it or not u are very brave for even trying to tell someone what happened to u. u were a child, you still are, and the person who did this to u is a coward. im not gonna bad mouth ur mom bcuz I don't know her, but I am 23 years old and I have 2 daughters of my own (3 1/2 & 16 months) and if they told me someone was molesting them I don't care who that person was and whether I trusted them or not. I would listen to them. u r a beautiful person and you just need counseling to get thru the events that so badly traumatized u. im glad this other woman u spoke about stepped in and became a motherly figure for u bcuz u really need it. ur life is far from over. im just getting out of a physically abusive relationship that lasted for 7 years and I've never felt happier. im not comparing physical abuse to sexual abuse im just saying. these types of things are hard to deal with and after a while a person can start to feel really hopeless. never give up tho.

I guess my therapy was a combination of Gestault (focusing in the moment on how you are feeling/doing in response to your immediate environment, and your past too) and CBT (deep CBT, though, that traces the thoughts all the way back to their inception in childhood). I went to therapy on and off over a period of ten years with a 4 different therapists. For the last 10 years I have been doing my own work when things come up (I have an MSW). Are you getting therapy from pdocs?

I see my psychiatrist once per month - 20 minute session. I will begin seeing a psychologist regularly 6/30 for psychotherapy. In the meantime, I am on his call list. I have asked his particular style, and he uses a little of everything. (Minus Freudian.)

I'm unsure if a mixed approach will be helpful to me. I've been in therapy since middle childhood (age 10). Several different pdocs. Just thinking that I need something more intensive (DBT) to work through my issues. My psychiatrist's nurse is quite frustrated with me, and just wants me to wait until 6/30. She makes me feel as though I'm being a major pain and I ought to shut up. Makes me very hesitant to call and ask about a referral. She was supposed to call me back with one on Friday. Makes me really want to back off and escape again. The psychiatrist is really great, but his nurse is making my drama more intense! Am I being unreasonable?

Shez

I think that you are just reacting to the nurse. You have every right to react to people. A mixed approach says to me that he is knowledgable about many approaches and mixes and matches according to what the client needs. This sounds great to me.

quanni22
thanks for the support. things were going fine for a while even though there were a few problems but now things are falling apart again. I know that some people say that im brave but how am i brave? i didnt stop him or do anything important, i just survived. sometimes i do feel good and like i can move on and sometimes i feel and am told that i caused all the problems in my house and that i deserve to be miserable for causing the problems and "lying". it may not seem like it but i do love my mom but i hate how she treats me sometimes and how she knows that my brother is a jerk and knows how bad he gets when he gets mad but she still chooses to believe him and bad mouth me. i know that she has sacrificed a lot for me and my brother and its hard for her bieng a divorced parent but im never gunna be able to understand how she can say she loves me around other people and still bad mouth me and other people believe her. i was in counseling but it led nowhere. it helped me a little to deal with my dad not being around and i wanted to talk about my brother but nothing ever came out because i was scared that she wouldnt believe me or scared that she would have told my mom and caused more problems and i knew that i would have either showed no emotion or gotten real emotional and i didnt want her to see me like that. i guess i was just scared in general because the only person that i ever actually trusted and talked to about this was my teacher from last year that i got close with but now she moved away and i was talking to her for a while after she moved but my mom found out and told her not to contact me again. everyone else that found out either found out from someone else or through writing. and when it came to problems with my mom, my therapist took her side so i just kept everything to myself. some of the problems between me and my mom are over but its never gunna be the same because she is never gunna believe me about my brother so im never gunna be able to talk to her about stuff or be close to her. now i stopped seeing a therapist and i got no one cloe to me that i trust to talk to so i either write it down or keep it to myself because im afraid that if i tell any of my friends or anyone else that theyll look at me different or treat me different or even tell children services again.
u sound like a really great person and im so sorry that you had to go through something horrible like that. its alright to compare what you went through with what i went through because they were both horrible things that really affect a persons life. i hope that you can heal from your experience and that someday i can heal from mine and that someday ill be able to think of myself as beautiful and brave like u saqid i am but right now i thinkof myself as shameful and disgusting and cowardly but im trying to get better on my own. it was great for my teacher to be like a motherly figure to me and give me some relief and i thank her for that and even though she isnt physically with me now. i know that she will always be in with me in my heart and that is what keeps me going everyday along with my little cousins. im really trying not to give up and i ts hard but i have to for my little cousins and for the people out there that believe in me and most importantly for myself.

Thanks for sharing your objective opinion, Sannah.

I got a call from the nurse this morning and they're referring me to a local DBT group. I will still keep my psychiatrist & the new psychologist for individual therapy. Phew- what a relief!

Shez

Yeah!!!!!! Keep us posted........