Struggling in sobriety

So Ive been dealing with pain in my wrist/hand worsening over the last month or so. Started trying perscription strength NSAIDS from doc. Not working to say the least. Back to doc for pain at a 10. Waiting for doc. In the meantime this strictly drink wants to get high on everything at once right now tossing over 2 & 1/2 years out the window. Ugh! So frustrated.

DelusionsDaily, Prescriptions are necessary medicines. They take time to work. Alcohol for you is not an option. The Serentiy Prayer says it all, "God, grant me the serenity(peace)".
That is what you have to do. Turn the pain over to Him and he will give you peace. I am not saying it is easy, no it isn't. But by faith seeking your higher power and turning it over will give you peace inside so you won't obsess about it so much. You can do this, One day at a time, One hour at a time, one moment at a time. Remember, this too shall pass....
Blessings...

Well, I'll be talking to my sponsor tomorrow. The lyrica is working for the pain mostly. So...hopefully I can untangle this mess in my head about wanting to use. I feel newly sober again. Im not. I never did anything but that headspace is sucking the sobriety right outta me.

Meeting with sponsor to start formally working the steps after over 2 & 1/2 years sober on monday. We'll see how that goes. Gotta start reading the big book 2 pages a night.