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How many times did you have to read the big book to understand it. I did the 12 steps before with a good sponsor and then I think I have it all figured out...and then I get upset for some reason and I am back to square one it seems. I seem to forget this easier than say algebra,
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1.) We admitted we were powerless over alcohol - 2.) That our lives had become unmanagable. First, I was never able to have just one beer & feel comfortable...It was a kind of powerlessness to stop at one, two or three like a "normal drinker." I was powerless over alcohol. I couldn't control my drinking, no matter how many times I promised myself I would. Once I started drinking, I never knew if I'd get so drunk that I'd say or do something stupid, or blackout altogether. Kind of a stupid way to live... Secondly, since I couldn't control my drinking my life had become unmanagable. I had problems on the job, in my marriage, lost friendships & other relationships, drank instead of spending time with my parents & other family, etc. I made excuses for all of these things...other people, places & things were my problem. It wasn't me! Once I accepted that alcohol was a HUGE source of my unmanagability, it was a big step towards stopping...One day at a time. Blah, blah, blah...I always go on too long. I was just outlining my own experiences; yours might be very different. Learining & living Step One is 90% of the job where my sobriety is concerned. And I know you've already accepted this step, because you've got a couple years of sobriety! In "How It Works," which is a chapter in the Big Book, it says explicitly that the steps are merely a suggestion. Anyone who tells you that they're working them perfectly, or that there's a "right answer" is too big for their own britches, in my opinion. In short, now that I've blabbed on too much, the best & most important part of the Big Book for me is all the stories after page 164, because I consistently find myself thinking, "Yep, I did that!"..."Oh, I drank the same way!"...or, "They got sober, so I can, too!" The Big Book is like a portable meeting (that's all it is for me). Don't listen to some asshat who says it's algebra! It sounds like you've got this & are willing to learn about life on life's terms. Carry on, then! ![]() Last edited by emgreen; Nov 09, 2017 at 06:43 PM. |
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Well a lot of you're drinking experiences are similar to mine and I do find similarities in the book's stories also. I think I'll start reading the stories over again. Thanks! How did you find a sponsor who does this or is this how you learned on your own through time?
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I just went to meetings & listened to others speak. My sponsor is an old professor who asks a lot of questions & points out hypocrisies when he detects them in meetings. He pulls no punches, & doesn't treat the Big Book like it's some infallible text like the Bible. He's somewhat of a rebel in AA circles...but I didn't like authority figures much anyways, so we we got/get along fine. When he agreed to sponsor me, he had me read a book called A New Pair of Glasses by Chuck C. You should Google it & find some descriptions of the content. It's a pretty revolutionary look at the program. Chuck C. gave seminars called, "Don't Take Yourself So ****** Seriously."
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Have you returned to meetings yet, rainbow? If not, don't feel bad. I've not been to one in a few weeks because I've been isolating. It's a hard habit to break, & I'll be kind of cooped up for 4-6 weeks. I started using the phone again this past week to talk with a few guys from the program, but wasn't even answering my phone for quite a while there.
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Beginning in 1981, I attended up to as many as fifteen meetings per week for over a year before I finally found someone who could actually help me do what is actually shared and suggested in the A.A. Big Book. I already knew my drinking had been a mere symptom (and not the cause) of my problem of not being able to manage my own life successfully (Step One) and I knew the book was about learning a completely new manner of living (Step Two)...but most of what I heard in most meetings was in conflict with what is shared in the book and I could not sort that all out on my own. If you have yet to find someone who can show you "precisely how we have [permanently] recovered" (Foreword to First Edition), send me a PM and I can put you in touch with someone who can.
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| manic-depressive with psychotic tendencies (1977) | chronic alcoholism (1981) | Asperger burnout (2010) | mood disorder - nos / personality disorder - nos / generalized anxiety disorder (2011) | chronic back pain / peripheral neuropathy / partial visual impairment | Gastrointestinal Stromal Tumors (incurable cancer) | |
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After close to 30 years sober I still learn new things from the "Big Book". Going to a Big Book meeting once a week helps. I'll read a sentence I've read many times before and then one day it's meaning or answer jumps off the page.
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Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark, in the hopeless swamps of the approximate, the not-quite, the not-yet, the not-at-all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish, in lonely frustration for the life you deserved, but have never been able to reach. Check your road and the nature of your battle. The world you desired can be won. It exists, it is real, it is possible, it is yours..~Ayn Rand |
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