I'm doing a little better

Compared to 6 months ago, I'm doing better.

6 months ago I only sat in a corner of my room staring at the carpet. I went to school, but my mom had to write me a todolist (have breakfast, take your meds, brush your teeth) or I'd forget to eat. The depression was overwhelming, all-consuming. I barely ate and drank. I didn't feel hunger or fear. Now the depression has lessened to the point I can actually feel fear again, which isn't pleasant, but is a good thing. And I can use that fear to take actions so that the fear doesn't come through, which is also a new thing. Before I was so depressed I couldn't bother.

Just wanted to share.

Any progress is good! Remember to be kind to yourself

Thanks for sharing. You encouraged me too. I'm so glad you can appreciate that what you describe is progress and hope it gives you some encouragement. I appreciate that life is still very hard for you, and hope you can feel some sort of pleasure too soon. That aspect will come, honest. Keep being kind to yourself however you know how.

This thread was posted some time ago. How are you now?

How about an update? I agree, fear isn't a great feeling to experience, but by gosh, it is a feeling!

Sorry, I'd forgotten about this thread.

In August I was manic for an evening (until my mum called the pdoc who prescribed strong sleeping pills and my mum threatened to stay up with me all night if I didn't take them). When I woke up I was doing OKish. This has steadily worsened into deep depression again.
I do go to school (well, not the last couple of weeks - first a week's holiday, then illness because of med changes, then other illness) and brush my teeth usually at least three times a week. I try to take good care of myself. But I just don't care. I don't even wear a scarf around my head anymore - I'm half bald (which an 18yo female isn't supposed to be), a couple of months ago you wouldn't have caught me out of my room without one.


I have T in an hour. It'll be a difficult session.

Thank you for sharing this. I'm sorry you're feeling so bad, must feel like a kick in the teeth!
(Or worse).

I hope your time with your T was productive, if difficult.

I'm rooting for you and really, really hope you find some hope again soon.