[shezbut]

No matter where I am, what I am doing (or trying to do), I just don't cut it. I try *so hard* ~ but I can't do it! I feel absolutely hopeless. I am tired of fighting hard, only to find out that my fighting hurt those that I'm being paid to care for. I cannot continue making these big mistakes. I freaking HATE myself. I can't do anything!! What in the hell is wrong with me?? I'm furious with myself!

I'm never going to get anywhere in life.

Possible trigger:

I am insignificant and cannot wait til my pathetic existence ends.

[Rohag]

What's the current status of the trigeminal neuralgia and GI issue? (No need to answer.)

[shezbut]

My GI issue is still going like crazy, but my TN is *knock on wood* being controlled medicinally right now. I finally get in to see my doctor on Wednesday afternoon ~ and I am hoping for some help to get through this dang illness/condition/whatever.

[Bridgeto]

Originally Posted by shezbut

No matter where I am, what I am doing (or trying to do), I just don't cut it. I try *so hard* ~ but I can't do it! I feel absolutely hopeless. I am tired of fighting hard, only to find out that my fighting hurt those that I'm being paid to care for. I cannot continue making these big mistakes. I freaking HATE myself. I can't do anything!! What in the hell is wrong with me?? I'm furious with myself!

I'm never going to get anywhere in life.

Possible trigger:

I am insignificant and cannot wait til my pathetic existence ends.

It sounds like you are way to HARD on yourself. You need to give yourself a little more credit and give yourself a break. What about letting other people you love help you out for a change. Try not to take things so seriously in life. One thing that isn't bs is that laughing really is the best medicine. I've been very depressed lately almost to the point where I'm paralyzed. What I've been doing is putting on a 'stand up comedy" dvd. It helps release something to your brain. I don't know what but it does. Remember you are a good person. God doesn't make failures and people that don't deserve happiness. There is a way out of this. I can think of a lot for you. Reply to me and I'll give you a few.

[Festivus61]

Please know that you are not alone. I too feel like that a lot too. I've tried so many things in life, too many to list. For some reason I have a hard time learning certain things, and I really don't have any natural talents. I have very little energy or motivation, and I really dislike that about myself. I'm sure you have redeeming qualities though just as I do. You are unique; there is nobody on Earth that is quite like you!

[Fedor]

Remember it's not your fault! Mental illness is a disease like diabetes. You have a chemical imbalance in your brain as do I. You can get better though spoken from someone that for the first time in my life I am not depressed on a daily basis it's the odd day here and there

[Yksik]

I know how that feels - I think it's my life struggle as well.
I hope it will get easier for you very soon!

[Fuzzybear]