Did something really stupid

I go through Caremark which mails my prescriptions to me. There was some problem with the refill so I didn't get them in time to start a new pack since you are supposed to start on the first day of your period. Well, being the idiot that I am, my bf and I had sex on the 29th not even thinking about it (because I have been on b.c. for 6 years) and I ovulated on the 1st. Now I am freaking out because that is absolutely the prime time to get pregnant. He pulled out but my 15 year old niece is a perfect example of just how ineffective that is.

I am losing my mind now because I know I can't take a pregnancy test until 5 days before my period and even then they aren't that accurate. So I don't know if I am noticing things because I'm freaking out and they always happen or if these things really are new. I am having a lot more discharge than normal (but once again I could always have this much and am only noticing it now because I'm scared). I haven't had any breast tenderness or morning sickness but it has only been a couple days.

My sister was on b.c. for 7 years and her obgyn told her that after being on it for a while it's almost impossible to get pregnant the month after you stop but I'm still really scared. There really isn't anything I can do now but wait. I guess I just wanted to get that off my chest. I feel like such an idiot!

Okay, do a worst case scenario to get rid of the stress/anxiety! If you were pregnant, what would you do? It's just a waiting game but not quite Russian roulette; you are/are not pregnant but it's just a "problem" of deciding what you would do in a certain situation. You don't quite have to name the baby yet :-)

Well luckily my bf graduates with his masters in May and I start grad school in august. The kinds of jobs he is eligible for start around 70,000 a year but theoretically if I conceived 2 days ago then I would have it a few weeks after school started. So that would be the biggest thing. My GA pays 15,000 a year so our combined incomes would be close to 100,000 a year which is doable. I would be more concerned with classes that I would miss. Plus we're not married. Which I know isn't necessarily the norm anymore but I never wanted to have a kid out of wedlock (us silly christians lol).

SIU has childcare on campus but I'm not going here for grad school. I would imagine that Arkansas does also simply because they have more money than we do. I'm just getting way ahead of myself lol

I would BREATHE and take a DEEP BREATH as your doctor is correct - after taking the pill for so many years it usually takes the body several months before it gets back into a regular routine, therefore, I suggest after two weeks has passed that you take a home pregnancy test and see what the results are, if it is positive your know what to do - see your doctor for a follow up.

Trying to breathe....so far it's not working. I'm such a spaz.

Just a quick thought I had - the discharge, is it clear, and sort of stringy? That actually usually indicates you are ovulating NOW rather than before. Look up information on cervical mucous and ovulation, and you can also check out basal temperature.

Remember that stress is going to make your period late sometimes too - so do try to relax. If it is the case that you are - I'd say you would handle it JUST fine.

It is clear but not stringy. It feels a lot thicker than normal. But on b.c. I don't have that so I'm not sure if that is normal for not being on birth control or if that's some other indication?

oh duh. Sorry, totally forgot about the birth control affecting it.

Heres something you could try:

http://infertility.about.com/od/tryi..._pregnancy.htm

I think the general consensus is that if the discharge occurs for a couple days and doesn't have any blood or spotting then its probably from ovulation. every website I have found says that the discharge from pregnancy is pretty consistent and that you usually spot from implantation bleeding. I haven't had any spotting and the discharge only lasted about 2 days which makes me think it was just from ovulating.

I also have not had any other early pregnancy symptoms like breast tenderness or morning nausea. I did have some stomach pains yesterday but I'm almost positive that was from my chemistry lab (4 hours of inhaling chemicals) because I got home and drank some water and felt better.

I'm just trying to pay attention to my body right now because I don't want to go out to the bar and drink or something and then later on find out that I am so I'm being pretty cautious just in case. I have a pregnancy test that you can take up to 5 days before your missed period. My calendar says that I should start on Valentine's Day (HA!) so next Tuesday I should be able to take it at least to relieve some stress.

sounds like you are doing really well! good for you.

Let me know if you have any questions!

So this morning I had a tiny dark spot in my normal discharge and now my right nipple is extremely sore. Now I'm really scared. The dates are perfect. 7 days after ovulation is when signs start and today is day 7 after ovulation. I'm taking a home test today and even if it says negative I'm going to the doctor this week to make absolutely sure. OH MY GOD!!!!

(((((((saluki))))))))) It'll be ok If you aren't, you aren't. If you are, we go from there. Just try to relax until you know for sure. You aren't an idiot.

I guess I just don't understand how the one month that I don't get my bc and have sex 1 time using a method that only has a 4% chance of failure results in this! What kind of odds is that?!

My bf is convinced that I'm giving myself a hysterical pregnancy because I'm certain I am and that my symptoms are caused by myself being anxious about it which is very possible. I'm going to the school nurse tomorrow that way my mom doesn't receive a bill in the mail from insurance and start questioning me.

Y'know....at first I could only think of all the bad things that come along with having a kid and now, after a few days of waiting I feel like, if I do take the test and it says negative I'm actually going to be a little disappointed.

I mean, we're not the worst people in the world to be in this situation. He is graduating with his masters and his degree starts him out at around 70000 a year plus I would be on salary from grad school and if I conceived 2 weeks ago then I would have it in the middle of Fall semester and wouldn't actually be doing field work or anything.

I don't know how I feel about it. I think I'm okay with either way now though. So at least I have calmed down a bit.

It's negative.....I'm not sure how I feel actually. A little disappointed actually. Is that weird?

I don't think that's weird at all. You were getting sort of used to the idea of raising a child. Would you consider having one in the future?

(((((((salukigirl)))))) i think it's cool that you were even starting to like the idea a bit. it's ok to be disappointed and relieved at the same time.

We have talked about having kids in the future. I want to get my PhD and so does he eventually so we already talked about me having my masters first and him being settled in a job or starting his phd before we did. Plus neither of us are too keen on the idea of having a child without being married first. Yeah I guess I'm relieved and disappointed all at once. Thanks for supporting me through all this.

Sounds like the possible start of your period to me....

I guess some of the reason I was disappointed was because I have always had a problem with cysts and hormones. I have PCOS and at one time had over a dozen cysts in each ovary and a polyp in the lining of my uterus. I went on hormones which made the polyp release itself from my uterine wall and the cysts were bursting about once or twice every month. My obgyn said that there is no guarantee that the polyp wont come back and that if it did, it would act like an IUD and wouldn't allow me to get pregnant. So since I was 17 I knew that there was a chance that I wouldn't be able to conceive.

So even though I know its not the right time, I guess it got my hopes up that maybe I am able to..... I just hope I'm able to conceive when the time comes.

If it is meant to be - it will happen..... it took my best friend over ten years of trying to conceive, but now she has a beautiful blonde hair blue eye little girl... to her the long hard wait was worth it.