Nowhere to turn

I really don't know where to start or post. I am feeling so lost right now. There is so much that I want to say, but I am afraid that no one will respond to what I have to say as if I am invisible. I've experienced that my whole life, but now it's catching up to me. It's so frustrating. I don't know what it is that I am doing wrong. It's very overwhelming. I want to do so many things to keep myself busy while I am not working like yoga, learn a new language, continue writing short stories, photography, art...everything that I love so much. Read books, fill my head with knowledge. But then I'd have to do something that feels like it takes me forever to do, like just cleaning the kitchen or the house period. I get frustrated because I feel like I am doing it all by myself and that there's no time left for me to enjoy anything.

There are so many things that make my life feel alive and beautiful, but then soon after that, that feeling has completely left me.

Sorry about the ranting, but I just want to be able to throw this out in the universe. . .

I sometimes feel like that I think. I'm retired so can do whatever I want but resent having to do "chores" instead of just staying here on the computer and doing what I like, working on my websites and courses. But I realize it's all in my head, I can do what I like whenever I like, but I like having a clean kitchen too :-) I'm usually okay once I'm working on a chore and focused on it. It's my imagination that gets the best of me and imagines what "work" will be like and that I won't like it, etc.

Think about making your bed (or something similar) and how it doesn't matter; you do it and have to keep redoing it each day (dishes are like that). But then I remember when I don't make my bed and obsess over having not made it and what a slob I am, etc. for a long time and then eventually it gets made and it's like the obsession/problem was never there.

When we're reading and writing and working on the things we "like" to do, why think about those other things, just like when we're doing the other, don't think about what you're missing with the reading/writing. Each thing should have it's own focus and not have its worth taken away by some other.

How about making a list the night before of all the things you'd like to get done the following day, and then putting time limits to each activity?

Does that sound feasible? It'd be like a map for your day, and for all the things you want to accomplish in that day. All you have to do is follow your own instructions.
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Hey there. Going through the same thing you are. Have chores but I am on here instead. Guilt free though. I built PC time into my schedule. I have 20 more minutes to run my mouth on here. There is also a great website called flylady.com that may help motivate you and help as far as housework goes. Hope this helps!

I think the hardest step is the first - once you can build up the strength and courage to get past that, the rest just kind of flows along and you may well start enjoying those things again