[BubonicPlague]

I'm giving up on wanting to be in a relationship.
I know it's hard to quit thinking at age 17, but I have poor social skills that hinder my ability to be successful in socializing.

I've been noticing women everywhere, some getting married, going out on dates and having babies with them.

I feel like I should get married and have children of my own, but I know there are people out there that do it just to be like everyone else. I don't want to be that person who just does it for attention. I don't even think of myself as reliable or responsible with myself and every day life.

Usually when I see myself getting married, I end up getting a divorce.
When having a baby, I can see myself being clumsy and neglectful.

I don't want it to be like that, so now I'm just avoiding it to not let anything bad happen.

I just feel like I should stay single for the rest of my life and learn to deal with it.

[Stronger]

Some great guy may come and steal you heart. But if he does, make sure that he treats you like a princess. Because you don't deserve anything less that the best!
Do you have a T? Have you tried talking to him/her about it? That might help some.
I'm socially awkward too and have only ever had one boyfriend, but don't let yourself believe that you are not good enough, because you certainly are more than enough, my dear!

I think you're looking way too far ahead relationships with people are often slow growing and even if you do get married, divorce is most definitely not a terrible end-all sort of thing.

Also, I don't believe in forcing a connection or jumping on the bandwagon so to speak. Get into a relationship when you're ready and really care about the other person. Don't feel pressured into one because that won't make you happy. Take your time there are plenty of fish in the sea. Plus, I don't know where you're from, but it's most definitely common for the majority of my area to not have even experienced a single relationship until college. And even then me and plenty of my friends haven't either (I'm 20). Also word of the wise, usually the people who aren't looking for a relationship and are at peace with not being in one get picked up the fastest. It's weird...

Call me an old romantic but I'm not exactly worried about finding a relationship. I get to know everyone first and if I could really see myself with them then it'll happen if it's meant to happen. I guess I'm still more concerned with making lots of friends and connections. But there are definitely a lot of creepers as you go through life :/ so make sure not to end up with one of them lol. I never got hit on before college and now I'm actively turning away guys which is a really odd uncomfortable situation but really ego boosting.

What I'm trying to say that, even if you haven't met someone yet, there are plenty of people out there and some people spend their entire life single until they meet the "one." To be honest I'd prefer that over marrying the wrong person and then realizing 5 years too late that you want to divorce.

Stronger is right about self-worth though. You are more than enough

[liana13]

I was like you, I didn't think I would meet anyone. I didn't want and it didn't bother me. But, first day of college, I met a guy and we've been together for 6 months. And now I couldn't imagine life with out him.

What I am saying, is you adapt to your circumstances. Most women are natural born mothers, and they see that when they have a child. I didn't see my self ever getting married, but now I'm in a relationship, it's one of my dreams.

Try and not focus on whether you have or don't have a relationship. When you meet the right person, it will come naturally and you wont even realise it. But life isn't for avoiding things, it's for doing those things, making those mistakes and learning from them. Granted for people with social difficulties - like myself, and many other people - it's difficult getting out there and learning to let yourself make mistakes with people. But don't give up on the idea of a relationship.

If you think about it, we're all supposed to find the 'one', if you believe in that kind of thing. We can't find the 'one' until we've been through relationships and found out what kind of person will be the 'one'. Unless you're incredibly lucky and find this person before you have even had another relationship.

Like Stronger said, if you have a therapist, talk to them about it. I'm sure they'll have their buckets of advice.