[Raynaadi]

I don't want to go into details, and its not about my latest issues with bf, thats going better. I'm just going through some things that are making me really sad. Its all passed stuff. I can't give details right now...I'm sorry I know it makes it hard to help when you don't know whats going on. My boyfriend is going to help me into therapy (finally!!! yay!) I haven't ever been able to afford it.

Anyway, I just need the women. Bust out the chocolate ice cream. I just need hugs.

[Christina86]

(((((((((((Rayna)))))))))))))

Ice cream works wonders. I like chocolate too.

If I can help any - let me know.

[Raynaadi]

Thanks Christina. I just need to know ya'll are out there. I just can't go into details right now...I finally got the tears to stop and don't want them starting again.

[Christina86]

Understood.

Sorry you're hurting (((((((((((((Rayna))))))))))))) ...

*passes virtual chocolate* (No calories, so no guilt later if you feel guilty about that sort of thing)

[Raynaadi]

That got a smile. =) At this point I'd go for the fully loaded stuff! Extra chocolate....

[Christina86]

Did someone say chocolate?

[InACorner]

(((((((((((Ray)))))))))))))))))

im gonna go grab some chips too...for a salty sweet thing....and maybe an extra large box of keenx....the kind with aloe....i just hate those red sores on your nose holes after to much nasal drippings and hand rubbing....kinda gross now that i reread that....perhaps a really sappy movie....then we can blame the movie for our tears...and after that we can jump into each others arms and get all gooey and nasaly drippy together....and the kinda ending of movie where its hard to catch your breathe so that we dont think about why we are crying we are thinking about trying to breathe properly.....and unclog any possible airways....

[bebop]

(((((hugs))))))

[tranquility]

{{{{Rayna}}}}}

On my way out the door but I wanted to say that you are a fabulous person and you deserve to have anyone help you through this - including your boyfriend with the money!

I'm here if you need me - keep up the strength!

Tranquility

[biiv]

((((((((((((((((((((((rayna)))))))))))))))))))))))
im sorry things are coming up for you though im glad you re finally getting into some therapy.

am really in the mood for some serious comfort food myself. life can really suck sometimes.
will be thinking of you
biiv

aww ray ray - sending you a massive soppy english hug me luv. you're great,lovely, we all love our ray

passing on some cadburys choc - the best in britain -

mmm enjoy love you, jinny xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

[Soidhonia]

(((RAYNA))). I a sorry that you are having a Hard time right now. I hope things get better for you soon. Take care. soidhonia

[Raynaadi]

Thank you so much everyone! So far today I'm feeling ok, but its still early lol. I'm so glad I finally reached out here. Too often I keep quiet here. Duh, its a support site....so why am I keeping quiet haha.

Inny your post made me crack up, especially this part "i just hate those red sores on your nose holes after to much nasal drippings and hand rubbing...." That was just TOO funny!!!

It was wonderful to wake up to all your posts everyone. Thank you so much.

I'm here Raynaadi. *passes you a hot fudge sundae*

[Raynaadi]

Yummm, hot fudge in the morning, can't beat that. Thanks Rainbozz.

[Nikki2000]

(((((((((((((((((Rayna))))))))))))))))))

so sorry you are feeling sad...

[Raynaadi]

Thank you Nikki. I think its just a stage of life. I'm learning that its normal to feel blue sometimes. Just doesn't feel very good!

[MyBestKids2]

(((((((((ray ray))))))))

One of my special triple chocolate trifle dishes are on their way!!!



Dee

[Raynaadi]

Yummmmm!!!

Did you ever watch "Friends"? There's a trifle episode I thought of when I read this.

[seeker1950]

Ray...you are so special here.
Sending you love and healing thoughts!
Love
Patty

[Raynaadi]

Thank you ((( Patty ))). I think its going to be a rocky road, but its part of the healing process.

[biiv]

you feeling any better today rayna?
thinking of you and hoping life is treating you better.
biiv

[Raynaadi]

I am feeling better, thank you....I've accepted that I'm hitting a place in life where I'm starting to feel grief from the death of my mom way back in 99. I haven't had the proper greiving stage....I started drinking not long after she died and numbed out most feelings....and now being sober just over 2 years, the feelings are starting to come up, and the anniversary of her death is next month on the 15th. My boyfriend is looking into getting me some grief counseling, something I never had.

So for the most part, I'm feeling better, but there's this underlying sadness. It'll get better, just not right away.

[biiv]

im sorry rayna. the only thing i guess is that grief is such a natural healthy process. it hurts so much but its something important to do when you have the strength to face it. i hope you can get a counsellor to help you through.
good luck and take care of yourself. im glad you re feeling a bit better at least.

[Raynaadi]

Yes, it is a natural thing. I never did it properly though, so it will be good to get in and get help for it. I'm glad to be feeling it right now, honestly. For so many years, I stuff emotion and it turned to poison. I don't want to do that anymore. Being sad just means I miss her, and thats ok.