[kala83]

I am going in at some point this week, to speak to DFS in my local area about Medacare and Disablity.

I am not sure why but even though with the issues I have i would qualify for either well enough. Somewhere in the back of my mind it feels like I am giving up on finding a normal job. Which I frankly hate that my brain is trying to think this way.

I am not giving up on my dreams and goals in my life simply cause I think I need extra help at this point in my life. And I am pretty sure that I am getting into internal arguments like this with my self due to.....my anxiety

[Leed]

Don't even THINK you're giving up on anything. We've PAID INTO this system for many years, and now that we need it, we should be able to draw on our OWN ACCOUNT.

The application for disability is a real pain, but go for it!!! You'll have alot of forms to fill out -- in fact, I've heard that you don't have to be denied once before you can get an attorney for disability. You can get one the first time. So why not hire one on contingency? That's where you do NOT PAY HIM -- he gets his fee from your back wages. He can't take more than 25%. So talk to a disability attorney in your area, and let HIM fill out the paperwork for you. It's MUCH EASIER and you WILL get approved, whereas if you do it, you'll get denied!!! Everyone does the first time -- unless you have an attorney!

So give it a try. I wish you the very best! God bless and keep us posted, ok? Hugs, Lee

[Hellion]

I've applied for SSI and hopefully can get on medicaid...so I am not in quite the same situation but its similar in a sense. Anyways I also struggle with those sort of internal arguments about this sort of thing.

I mean I know I am having trouble with functioning and it interfered with college causing me to drop out and my ability to get and/or keep a job at least at this point in my life. So there is nothing wrong with getting help...nor am I giving up by acknowledging the issues I have interfere with these things.

But yet I still end up feeling like I could just try harder to work or I feel guilty about being a 'burden' and such. I know that's more things I've internalized and anxiety about what people think and such. Anyways its easier said than done but just try not to let it get you down too much, that's all I really know to do...though I must admit I've procrastinated on this some due to this exact issue.