I'm back where I started. I could've done more to be sure the car was reliable.........but I'm still not positive I know what's wrong with it. Just borrowed money to order a $200 part. The mechanic I had to take it to after it stalled in traffic and wouldn't start for 20 min., couldn't even figure it out. Or else, they were just trying to get me to spend on even more expensive trial and error repairs. I love when they tell me, "Oh, it's an old car, you know......." Well, soooorrrrry, I can't afford, nor do I really want to pay $20,000 for a new car. The mechanic did a computer diagnostic test, and found a code for a bad sensor. I'll fix it myself. They'd end up charging me at least $75 in labor for unscrewing 2 screws, taking a small part out, and screwing a new one back in, plus they would order me an overpriced part.............and they didn't even think that was really the issue. Although, I read on the internet that my symptoms match up with issues with these sensors, and the parts person told me so as well. The mechanic insisted that the symptoms I explained were irrelevant, and just coincidences. God, I'm so sick of it. Why can't they show some mercy for people with older cars? I mean, does it look like I have money?? Anyway, I told the agency lady to just give the job to someone else. I applied for govn't assistance. Maybe I can get some medical assistance to see a doctor for what I suspect might be PMDD, and migraines. I quit my previous job not once but 3 times, maybe because of it. I get so depressed and emotionally unstable that I just give up. And now I'm unemployed through my own fault. I feel hopeless to find a new job where I'll be somewhat happy. I liked my old job for the most part. It was really problems I was having at home that made me decide to just not show up for work one day. I felt stuck at home, and impulsively thought to quit my source of income to be forced to move out of the situation. Hasn't even happened yet because I cashed out my 401k to pay rent, but now that's gone. I can't move back home anyway. My mom doesn't really want me there, and she is an alcoholic anyway. I can't be around that again. I'm stuck with the inconsiderate "boyfriend" who cares more about baby mama#2 who has 3 sep. baby daddies, his video game, and football than he does about me.

[Jan1212]

There seems to be so many stressors in your life right now.. home life needs to be separate from work like and vice-versa -it depends on you. Did you have a talk with your bf about your concerns about what's happening right now? He needs to be there for you, especially right now, did he take time to listen? I understand transportation is vital for work... my family took away my car and lent it to my sister for months who apparently went to visit her male acquaintances while I wasted my $ on taxis and had missed days of class and work, it was a low point in my life to have family treat me like this , I really am hoping things get better for you

Thanks Jan1212. Oh yeah, last week my mom volunteered me to drive 30 miles to my brother's house to watch his dog while he went out of town for a day! She knew my car was having intermittent problems. She was on the phone with my brother while I was at her house after I just helped her jump her car b/c she left the keys turned to 'on' and drained the battery, and he couldn't even give her any advice to pass onto me. He tests engine for a living! He just whined to my mom about how he felt like he has no family b/c he has no one to watch his dog while he went out of town for work. His employer even said to bring the dog!! I think everyone is just fed up with hearing about my problems...........I handle everything myself though, so it's nothing to them anyway. I just feel like such a nuisance to everyone, but they don't even help me. Why am I even here? Just to help other people? As for my boyfriend, when I try to talk to him about anything, he usually says, "It's your fault, you should've done this or that." If I ask him to keep the tv down because I have a headache, he says,"When do you not have a headache?" I think he just thought I was supposed to be there for him, but since he has kids and exes, that I should just expect to come last in his life. The best thing he says, "Are you kidding? I put you first, I'm always here." I don't even understand that statement, of course he's always here, he lives here. He has to live here because he pays so much child support now, he can't afford to live alone. You know, now I'm thinking it might have been a good thing that I didn't get that job because I probably would've started helping him with child support, etc., and then really hate myself even more. Sorry for the rambling........