Afraid

I didn't know where else to put this.

I'm scared I'll have to give up my dream in order to get a 40 hour work week job that I'll more than likely hate just to make ends meet. I get that everybody does it, but that's the thing, I don't want to be like everybody else. I already know what I want to do, reviews. Video Games and Movies to be precise. I've been self employed for a year now through my blog that I had since 2011. Google AdSense provided a rather generous form of revenue for a while. I was halfway to my first paycheck, and then they suspended me for 'reasons,' and every single alternative I found since then has been crap by comparison.

I tried searching for jobs more in my field, but they all have one thing in common. They want their employees to report on gaming news, too. I have no interest in doing that. The one and only job I had like that was something I utterly despised. The only thing I want to do are my reviews. I honestly can't imagine myself doing anything else. It's my passion, but I'm starting to feel like I'm not going to be able to support myself that way, and it scares me. I feel like I'm just prolonging the inevitable. I know my parents aren't going to be around forever and I can't expect other people to take care of me. It's not fair to them. Even then, I'm still not willing to make the shift.

I don't know what to do.

This is difficult, and although I know it's not the exact same thing, I have heard from people who were making a living from YouTube videos and gaining a following had their incomes cut due to changes in compensation policy. I don't know anything about this industry, but I think what you are struggling with is feeling like you have to get a job that you really won't like. I might suggest continuing to try to research alternate ways to make money doing what you love. But also, I think we would all like to be able to completely make a living solely pursuing our passion, but many people have to get "day jobs" or whatever you want to call it so that they have a steady income while they are still pursuing their passion. Hopefully over time, you can make more and more money with your passion and less and less money with your "day job." It is painful to have to adjust one's goals though, but perhaps you won't have to give up as much as you think

I think Protectiva is right. sometimes we have to give a little more out of ourselves to sacrifice for the things we have a passion for. its worth it in the end