[seesaw]

Maybe I'll just never find a job I can work again. I didn't go to work today. I did call them and tell them I was sick...but it was only my third day. THIRD DAY.

The environment was just tiring me out. Like I said, on day 1, nothing was ready for me, so I just sat in my office like doing nothing, I didn't even have a mouse so it was hard to do the research I was doing and compile it because it's really hard just to use a track pad to do all that.

Then the second day, well, I finally got a mouse. It wasn't until the end of the day that I got email and access to the network server. And all day long the guy in the office next to me was talking (very loudly) about a local college football team...and because the office walls are so thin, I could hear everything. Then in the morning all these people kept coming in the office and exclaiming about my service dog...I think this morning I just lost it and couldn't put myself in that loud environment again.

What am I going to do? Plus to accept this job I can only let them pay me like $10 an hour.

I'm up for some other jobs that I have interviews for. I can make the same as working for them freelancing with these other gigs, I think. Plus I'm up for full-time work. But how am I going to make it through full-time work if I can't make it through 5 hours 4 days a week?!

I really don't know what to do. I can't survive on SSDI alone. So I either need to go back to work full-time or get some freelancing that is steady but not making me work for $10 an hour to make it work.

I really don't know what to do right now.

Seesaw

[reb569]

Originally Posted by seesaw

Maybe I'll just never find a job I can work again. I didn't go to work today. I did call them and tell them I was sick...but it was only my third day. THIRD DAY.

The environment was just tiring me out. Like I said, on day 1, nothing was ready for me, so I just sat in my office like doing nothing, I didn't even have a mouse so it was hard to do the research I was doing and compile it because it's really hard just to use a track pad to do all that.

Then the second day, well, I finally got a mouse. It wasn't until the end of the day that I got email and access to the network server. And all day long the guy in the office next to me was talking (very loudly) about a local college football team...and because the office walls are so thin, I could hear everything. Then in the morning all these people kept coming in the office and exclaiming about my service dog...I think this morning I just lost it and couldn't put myself in that loud environment again.

What am I going to do? Plus to accept this job I can only let them pay me like $10 an hour.

I'm up for some other jobs that I have interviews for. I can make the same as working for them freelancing with these other gigs, I think. Plus I'm up for full-time work. But how am I going to make it through full-time work if I can't make it through 5 hours 4 days a week?!

I really don't know what to do. I can't survive on SSDI alone. So I either need to go back to work full-time or get some freelancing that is steady but not making me work for $10 an hour to make it work.

I really don't know what to do right now.

Seesaw

I know in your last job this wasn't an option, but how about headphones and music to drown out your loud co-worker? Is it a possibility here?

For me, if I wasn't able to use music to drown out the environment around me, I don't think I'd be able to get through a lot of days.

The interest in your service dog will probably go away soon. It's just something new.

Hang in there, give this a little more time and see what you can do to reduce the issues within the environment.

[seesaw]

Too late...I quit today. It just wasn't worth it. But I'm hoping to have a part-time gig that's freelance, and I'll work from home, locked in later this week.

Seesaw

[reb569]

You have to do what's best for you. I'm sure it was the best decision.

[Purple,Violet,Blue]

Good luck with it, Seesaw.

I'm new. Sorry for bursting in on your conversation.

It's work-related issues that led me to join the forum, so I can't offer good advice, but I certain can understand and sympathise.

[mbavon]

Originally Posted by seesaw

Too late...I quit today. It just wasn't worth it. But I'm hoping to have a part-time gig that's freelance, and I'll work from home, locked in later this week.

Seesaw

I notice all the meds you have been on. Has any doctor tried combinations of these meds? I was depressed and pretty Treatment resistant The partial solution was to have med combination that work on three neurotransmitters:Serotonin, Norepinephrine, and Dopamine. I know everyone responds differently so I won't name the meds I am on. I say this is only a partial solution because I've occasionally have had breakthrough depression. As a matter fact I'm coming out of my 4th episode (in 27 years) of MDD that started in late July. I think the combo I am on makes for fewer, less disabling and shorter episodes of Major Depressive Disorder when there is a breakthrough.

[seesaw]

Originally Posted by mbavon

I notice all the meds you have been on. Has any doctor tried combinations of these meds? I was depressed and pretty Treatment resistant The partial solution was to have med combination that work on three neurotransmitters:Serotonin, Norepinephrine, and Dopamine. I know everyone responds differently so I won't name the meds I am on. I say this is only a partial solution because I've occasionally have had breakthrough depression. As a matter fact I'm coming out of my 4th episode (in 27 years) of MDD that started in late July. I think the combo I am on makes for fewer, less disabling and shorter episodes of Major Depressive Disorder when there is a breakthrough.

Hi, yes, we've tried combinations. Right now though, since I lost my full-time job in July and my insurance, I have run out of meds and am no longer on anything. And to tell you the truth, I don't notice much difference. I'm trying to manage my depression through diet, exercise, music, and different means of mood elevation. When I do get back to seeing my pdoc, I am only going to ask for help with my sleep disorder, which is part of the MDD.