[astoldbyginger]

Basically, I have worked for just about 10 years of my young life thus far. Aside from summer internships I've worked 4 other jobs now. And literally every job I have, including the one I got sucked into now and have been in for a little over two months, makes me depressed.

I had terrible depression in the past, (in my late teens), so I can quickly pinpoint the signs.

I was quite content in the 9 months before this job when I was working freelance; I had lots of time to work on my craft but I was not making much money. I fell into temptation because of concerns from my family, and sent out a handful of job applications hoping nothing would come of it, but I ended up getting two call backs and one was from a job I thought sounded like it was something that I could really learn from and would help me get better in my field.

However, as of now, negative feelings have returned; I stay up late so I won't have to go to sleep, fearful of eventually waking up to the next day. Low energy. Poor eating habits. An overall feeling of gloom, and suicidal thoughts.

When I was younger I felt very guilty and trapped because when I would explain what I was experiencing to people and related it to my job, their response was always that I should basically suck it up. Those kind of feelings have also returned, however I don't want to do what I've done before which was to stay anyway, while dying a little everyday. My probation period for my current job is set to end about 4 weeks from now and I am mustering the courage to inform the guy I report to that I don't intend on continuing on a full contract. I planned on doing it today, but I noticed that on a couple occasions throughout the day and a few last week as well, he tries to get snappy with me. This made me not want to go through with it today since I did not want to give the impression that I was doing it out of spite for what he said.

Basically, I plan on returning to freelancing and to start my own company. Has anyone else ever done something like this? Am I the only one who just can't tolerate working for others?

The thought of wasting atleast a third of my life away to toiling endlessly depresses me. That isn't living.

And for what? To fill other people's pockets so they don't have to toil?

We already spend a third of our lives in bed.

It just seems pointless to me, and nothing more than a time burner 'till we finally get to go to the grave.

[All Is Revealed]

The entire workplace environment can cause you to be depressed.

The feeling of being trapped in a job. The feeling of having to follow ridiculous rules like a child. Having to be a slave to your boss. The list goes on.

I know about a dozen people who started their own business. Though they work 3 times as hard as their old jobs, they are happy running the show.

[astoldbyginger]

Originally Posted by _nullandvoid_

The thought of wasting atleast a third of my life away to toiling endlessly depresses me. That isn't living.

And for what? To fill other people's pockets so they don't have to toil?

We already spend a third of our lives in bed.

It just seems pointless to me, and nothing more than a time burner 'till we finally get to go to the grave.

I feel the same way. For those who wind up liking their jobs I understand why they would do it. But so many people hate their jobs and stay anyway. When you're mostly surrounded by these kinds of people it can be difficult to go against the grain. At 26 I am throwing in the towel though. I just cannot anymore.

[astoldbyginger]

Originally Posted by All Is Revealed

The entire workplace environment can cause you to be depressed.

The feeling of being trapped in a job. The feeling of having to follow ridiculous rules like a child. Having to be a slave to your boss. The list goes on.

I know about a dozen people who started their own business. Though they work 3 times as hard as their old jobs, they are happy running the show.

Sadly for me I have no one in my immediate family or circle who works for themselves aside from my father who retired a few years ago. It says a lot about who I have been getting advice from, and I have been pretty impressionable in the past so hesitated with doing things my own way. So much pain has come from it, I wish I followed my instincts sooner.

I know running the business will be lots of hard work, I started working on it early on in the year, doing it as a hobby and even then it was challenging but ofcourse a challenge I enjoy taking on. Thanks for your input

[AubinDidier]

I can not hit KPI for a month ._. it makes me feel useless

[Teddy Bear]

Sometimes working for others isn't the right answer. If you're comfortable working for yourself then your goals should be financial.