Negative thinking in new job when faced with new challenges

Oh yeah HR doesn’t need to be there at all. I just wondered about written eval. They are required to give us a copy. I think it could come handy to have one. I don’t know where I put mine lol but I know they have a paper copy somewhere if I need it. Our level of effectiveness is reported to the state and is ultimately a public knowledge. I hear that mistakes are made and things are reported wrongly. It’s wise to have your own copy. But yeah that’s the annual one. Not the one in between

Thanks for your input everyone!

I guess because I was expected to write something official regarding my work satisfaction and performance for my 6-month review, I also thought that my boss was required to provide a written review, as it was this way for my 45-day review.

I think it was supposed to be written. I will ask my boss in our 1:1 meeting tomorrow!

Thanks, again!

I found out that my review is supposed to be in writing by my boss, but he's majorly delayed for some reason.

I am having a hard time due to lack of sleep and more recent death around me. My husband kept me up for half the night because he couldn't sleep, and I got maybe 3 hours of rest.

Now I have to talk in a company-wide meeting today and I have an assigned project due Monday that I must work through. I feel like calling in sick, but I cannot.

I am having a rough time all around. I am very envious of a dear friend that I met on a mental health forum years ago. She gets short and long term disability through her employer and is taking yet another disability leave of absence for a few months.

Around and around I go on this topic, but I wish to all hell I could receive disability so that I can take care of my mental health and take time off from work.

You know when you're sleep deprived and then everything is colored dark because you're exhausted?? Or everything is a struggle because you're exhausted? That's where I am at.

I met with my CEO yesterday in a more casual social type of call. We have rounds that occur through our chat software that allow us to be matched with someone to have a 15-minute social visit. This allows us to get to know people in the company better. So I was matched with my CEO for the second time.

My husband thinks it was a mistake for me to bring up anything about a Content Manager role. I did, in this social visit. She asked me how my work was going, so of course I took the opportunity to tell her that I had enjoyed content ideation, that I discovered a skill I have in this area, and then I went on to mention how IF a position for a Content Manager DOES arise, that I would be very interested. I said that my boss had mentioned it to me as a possibility.

I don't think I was stepping on my boss's toes by mentioning this to the CEO? Do you? Instead, I feel I was self advocating, but my husband thinks this was a big mistake. He frequently thinks that what I say and do at work is wrong.

I see it as self-advocating. (You were smart to mention your boss.)

Nothing wrong with bringing it up. It might not lead to anything or it might but it sure isn’t a mistake to mention your interest in something

Thank you for the validation - it helps!

Thanks, divine! This helps. I really was questioning myself after my husband made that comment.

So, it looks like I am being given a whole website audit to do by myself. I am meeting with my CEO and 3 other people for a kickoff call today about the prospective client.

Once again, I have that fear inside - can I do this? Can I do a good enough job? I really want to do a good job on this audit this time. I have seen a few audits so far, so I can learn from those, but still, I have anxiety over it. At least I have 3 weeks to complete it. I hope that is enough time for me.

You can do it!

No matter what’s the task all you could do is do your best. Do the best you can and it will be all good. No point of worrying. Just work hard and use what you’ve learned and don’t hesitate to ask questions if you are lost on something. You can do it!

Thanks @Bill3 and @divine1966! I am sure I can do this..... I've proven to myself that I can rise to each new challenge. I will do my absolute best.

Well, things are looking up at work, I am happy to report!

I was told on Friday by my boss that soon I will be gaining 2 clients of my own. So, they are giving me more responsibility, which says I have been proving myself to them and they now trust that I can handle the additional work AND client facing work. This makes me very happy!

This also means that there is less of a threat of me losing my job, which is what I worried about for months. They want to hire another team member, so I think we're doing OK as we head into a recession.

I do feel I am in a good spot here. They are good people - the CEO is a wonderful woman with strong values and I appreciate the healthy culture she has created in the company. I haven't experienced ANYTHING that is toxic or unhealthy for me to date. And that is SO refreshing.

And they've been nothing but supportive of me through all my personal issues this year.

I think I am going to stay put in this job and not look elsewhere. I want to make this work for myself. And I honestly don't think I could handle an upheaval and a job change right now. I am getting comfortable where I am. It's been 7-8 months now, and I am finally settling in.

I think this is a good company for me. And I am enjoying my high salary, which is allowing me to save money AND do all the things I like to do. It would be a shame to leave and have to lower my salary.

Congratulations!

THANKS!!!

Great news! Glad you stayed and now things are looking up

Thanks, divine!

I found out from my VP that my CEO is happy with my audit and presentation slides - I’m doing well at work and am soo relieved!!!

Great to hear!!

Thanks!!! At least one area of my life is good. Lol.

Good job

I haven't been back to this thread in a while.

So, I have NO idea where my career is heading right now, and it's kind of scaring me or it's a bit nerve wrecking. I am supporting my team and am not doing the job I was hired to do. I do not carry clients, I do not write reports, and I am not in charge of strategy for any client. I do strictly support work for the team, and fill in as needed. I am also building article outlines for various articles to be written on my company website or on external sites such as Forbes. That's definitely pretty cool, and I like creating these outlines - it's fun for me, but I have no idea where this is going.

I will stay in my job as long as they allow me. I like the company culture, it's respectful and healthy, although I've found out that our CEO is extremely picky and perfectionistic. So that creates a slight problem whereby I feel my best work isn't good enough. Perfectionism always creates a feeling that you're never doing anything right or well enough. She pushes us to continue to do better and better and better - to grow. Which is not a bad thing, but the perfectionism is I feel a bad thing.

So, while I am enjoying the respectful company culture, I always wonder if I am doing a good enough job. And of course, I worry with a looming recession about the security of my job, but I try not to worry too much about it since it's mainly out of my hands.

I just wish I knew where my career is headed, and I hope that my having to take a month off from work didn't kill my entire career, which is my concern, especially since I continue to only be in a support role.

So, yesterday I realized how isolated I truly feel lately. I spend my week days home working, all alone. Most days, I barely talk to anyone. I do have some meetings here and there with team mates, or I sit in and shadow a client call, but I spend 40 hours a week at home alone. Then I am alone at night and also on the weekends when I go out by myself.

My main point: I received a job interest from an executive recruiter. The job would be in an office 2-3 days per week. My current company is 100% remote - my CEO lives in Texas and I am on the East coast. This other company is local to me, in the neighboring town, which would help me to get out of my house and it would help resolve the isolation factor.

But I am afraid.... I am worried I killed my career because I had to take off an entire month from work, and now I am only doing support work for my team, when I should be managing clients.

I don't know if I should tell my interviewers that I had to take a month off due to medical reasons and therefore, had to reduce my job responsibilities?????

I don't know what to say or what to do about this with this recruiter. Do I tell the truth but not mention having to take a month off from work? Do I put on my resume that I am doing support work and content development work, or do I lie and pretend I am doing the job I was actually hired to do?

My mom thinks I should tell the truth. I could leave off my resume that I am doing support work for the team, and I could simply put that I am doing content development work? Content development looks better than support work for my team.

I need your input and advice here, please... thank you!!!

Im not sure that a new job is the answer to your solitude. It seems like there may be other solutions to the problem that dont involve changing jobs. You could volunteer. That way you could interact with people but not affect your livelihood. Why not wait a little longer for current job to return you to previous status?