What Is The Use???? (I SWEAR IN THIS)

What is the use of "90 meetings 90 days" if the people in AA don't even care enough to have someone else come in and have a meeting. I sat out front the church for an hour and a half. It has gotten cold and it was raining. I have a really bad cut on my finger. Plus to top it all off I was in shorts and a t-shirt! I am really starting to wonder. Everyone says that you have more fun clean and sober, but I am wondering were that fun is. I don't like taking my pills........ALL 9 OF THEM!!!!!! I really don't like talking to my pdoc OR my therapist. I can't stand the nightmares everynight. I hate being away from my kids "so I can get better". What am I supposed to do?? I am starting to wonder if the right "medicaation" would be is a line of coke or a 12 pk. of Bud Light. I sure felt better when they were my "friends". I wonder where my support group is. Oh yea! I forgot. They are trying to put me in a hospital and plotting a way to deem me unfit so they can put me in a hospital. I am almost to the point where I throw up my hand and tell everyone " %#@&#! YOU AND GO TO HELL".

kathie, you sound frustrated. bummer that the AA group wasn't there. are there other meetings near you? maybe you can find another one........evidently 90 mtgs in 90 days works...i've known a lot of people who worked it and it helped them. think about your children and work on it that way.......eventually, you'll be doing it for yourself and that will make it easier.

(((((Kathie)))))... I've heard of the same thing happening around here from time to time, and it's a much smaller area. That bites. I know that sometimes, the meeting cards don't get updated, or the updated cards don't quite get into circulation like they should. My best advice is to see if there is a club house near, and go to meetings there... that way, you get to go to meetings, there is someone around most of the time. That way, you can hear what church meetings are out of comission, which ones are good, and maybe even some strong meetings, too. I know that when I was starting out on the clean and sober path, the clubs are what saved my ***. Also, is there a central office or something that you could call and tell them about your little experience yesterday, so they can look into this.

Hang in there... it really ain't so bad! If it were, I wouldn't still be clean and sober! If you want to talk, PM me or something!

... Sorry it happened!

Well the thing I was saying was the fact that I waited an hour and a half for this meeting and by the time my dad got there ALL the meetings in my area were over. I really needed a meeting last night. I am just fed up with everything. I am haveing a really hard time copeing.